hey ppl its dayna.. haha. i cant believe what i did.. deleted my new account cuz i was trying to delete the old one.. haha.. cant believe it..

*dAyNa*

im like.. sitting here.. talking to ppl.. bored.. listening to music... thinking about this game that im actually good at! lol.  thats sumthing unnormal 4 me! its pretty kool.. i can actually kill ppl.. so thats my new stress manager.. chopping ppls heads off.. sounds fun to me!

*dAyNa*

i dont wanna talk to ne one ne more.. least not rite now

yea... today was a continuation of last nite.. hating this very much.. i dont like this at all.. i feel like crap and i really hate nicole and britt rite now.. and idc if they read that u all can yell at me if u want.. idc ... ill just yell back! ... ne way.. im sitting here listening to beth.. not talking much.. im really annoyed today... yea.. my parents dont know that me and nik broke up so like.. there like "want the real estate section to look 4 u and nik a house"  .. i just walked away.. i really dont feel like telling them b/c i know that there gonna laugh there heads off.. and i told ryan and josh and kodi last nite and there like hahaha that sux 4 u .. u cant even keep an internet b/f.. i slapped josh and threw a pillow at kodi.. (i was afraid to hit ryan)... so yea.. and i woke up really early...so.. ttyl!

</3 dayna </3

*All Over*

After almost being stronger

You crumble into pieces

You broke us off

And i still dont know the reasons

All the pain inside is building

And is lashing out towards everyone

Were these always ur intesions?

Or do you enjoy having all the fun?

Your playing with my heart

Its no game to me

This is gonna cost ya

all pain comes with a fee

Its so hard to deal

With my rushing brain

Its way to much to think about

The reaction and all that pain

Though life moves on I'm stuck

I have a wound to heal

Its gonna take a while  t orealize

That all of this is real

poem i wrote last nite..

today has been kinda boring.. i went swimming for like 4 hours then i tanned for about an hour.. talked to zach a lil...and now im sitting here listenin to jimmy eat world...so yea.. today was a lil boring...

*dayna*

i hate everything about u

Why do i love you

No matter how hard i try

ur never satisfied

this is not a home

i think im better off alone

u alwayz dissappear

even when ur here

this is not a home

i think im better off alone

so real these voices in my head

when they come back u wont be

scared and lonley

u wont b scared

u wont be

scared and lonley

u wont be scared

u wont be lonley

when u finally trust me

finally believe in me

i will let u down ill

when u finally trust me

finally believe in me

in this time are we loving

or do we sit here wondering

y this world isnt turning round

its now or never

in this way are we learning

or do we sit here yearning

for this world to stop turning round

its now or never

wake up

im pounding on the door

im not who i was b4

where the hell r u

when i need u

wake up

im pounding on the door

i wont hurt u ne more

where the hell r u

when i need u

push me under

pull me farther

take me all the way

take me all the way

yep i love these songs.. 3 days grace is one of my fave bands besides papa roach and ect...

*dayna*

note to all... on yahoo im gonna have to get a new name b/c my parents are gonna end up getting on this one..  my new name on there is hottskaterchick8854..

*dayna*

well.. today.. really kinda odd... stuff happened.. listened to music... had a breakdown... prolly going to go over beths house...

*dayna*

ok... yesterday i went to beths house and i didnt sleep all nite... and today we didnt do ne thing later im going to my aunts house and were prolly gonna go golfing.... so yea.. its gonna be fun...

why is it so hard to tell the truth

but so hard to tell a lie

why is it so easy to give up

when u dont even try

why do u feel so cold

when its so hot outside

why do u love the feeling

to know that sum 1 cried

why do we say sumthings hard

when we can do it with ease

why are we so desperate

that we are begging: plz

why isnt life the truth?

we're all wrapped up in a lie

were all to busy faking

to find the reasons why

just got back from my aunts.. we went shopping i got an outfit... i got a smoothie too.. and we went golfing and watched bewitched... now im talking and reading.. wow.. i never thought id say i was reading in this.. hm.. what a change...but ne way.. it was fun ... now im feeling confused about everything being yelled at by everyone .. so much for running from my problems... they even followed me in my dreams too... that sucked...

*dayna*

Where do i go

what do i do

when i cant find my way

back to you

Every way i go

seems to be wrong

The path to you

just had to be so long

{Chorus}

Which way are you

The light is so far

Are you even listening

cuz I cant see you now

My heart cant take it

Its torn and broken

I cant lose hope now

But its all so hard

My heart is leading me

But its not sure

Which way to go now

So i cant find u

The path is torn

Left or rite again

The trouble is choosin

Will i see you

Or always wander

{Chorus}

{Chorus}

ok.. today.. kinda odd... got bak from beths.. talked online.. listened to really loud music while my parents werent home... and did dishes .. so "fun" lol..

awesome! i just found this cool thing in the paper 4 penn commercial cosmetology clinic thing.. its like 6.50 to get ur nails done and 6.50 to get ur hair cut.. 33 for highlights and 18 for getting it died... thats so awesome! if i save my money then i can get my hair highlighted and my hair cut... (highlights come with cuts).. gotta think of a colour though... brown or dark red... hmm... which one.. lemme know what u think!

*dAyNa*

im asking 4 ne one who likes even one song to let me know.. im gonna get this yahoo launchcast thing that lets u download as many songs as u want 4 5 bucks a month.. so if u can think of one let me know!

*dayna*

I had a really weird dream last nite! Sum how dan got yahoo messenger.. and i guess i was talking about him to sum 1 and he read it... and he came over and me beth and him were swimming and he was like.. so u like me? and i was like.. well if that isnt obvious and then he said that he read what i was saying about him to sum 1.. i forget who... and im like well do u like me?.. and hes like.. idk sumtimes i cant tell... and im like ok.. so what do u wanna do? and hes like we can one go out or 2 stay friends.. and he said it was my choice and i was like well.. how about i show u my choice then we started making out and yea.. i dont even like dan... or maybe i do and i dont know it.. who knows.. knowing me i prolly dont even know it.. but in the front of my mind i like sum 1 else... who knows.. now i have even more to think about..

Ok.. summer vacation.. two words simple idea.. sitting on ur butt all day rite? well... try explainin that 2 my parents! they think i should be doing "outside activities".. well maybe theres nothing to do out there! ... so stupid that they think im "wasting my summer".. whoo-hoo!

*dayna*

questoin to everyone do u still talk to ur ex?

everyone hates at least one person with a burning passion.....so without writing your name....put on here the person you hate with every loathing emotion you have...

1. I hate the following people: Ryan Allinder, Brandon Benner, Ben Baker, a lot of upperclassmen, Betsy Wilson, and a hell of alot of other people i hate so much i cant remember who they are but to them and the ones listed rot in hell u pricks. ~ Ryan

2.  All ppl i hate: Umm... at the moment Angela. ~Dayna

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

Overall, Your Observation Skills Get: C+

You tend to notice the big things in life... But the details aren't exactly your forte

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious

You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends. People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support. You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone. You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Arrogant Executor of Sacrifices. Where You Lived: Iran. How You Died: Typhoid fever

didnt know i was like that!

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

sure.. i dont even drink coffee

You are happy, driven, and status conscious. You want everyone to know how successful you are. Very logical, you see life as a game of strategy. A bit of a loner, you prefer to depend on yourself. You always keep your cool and your composure. You are a born leader and business person.

Your Summer Love Style is Serious

While others may be into a summer fling, you're about the real thing. And there's a good chance you're already serious with someone already. For you, the summer is about getting closer and more committed. Just don't get tempted by any of that hot weather eye candy!

wow that sounds like me!

Your #1 Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

Your #2 Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail. For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring. Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational. However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner. Best matches: INFP or ISFP

umm... i like the first one better!

Your Birthdate: September 5

With a birthday on the 5th of the month you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility

That dont really sound like me.. cept the impatient part.

Your Love Style is Manic

For you, love is the ultimate rollercoaster And you love to hold on tight and enjoy the ride Every time you fall in love, it feels like the first time And while it's exciting and exhilarating... It's also stressful and scary!

Yep thats me!

You Are "Kiss"

WOW!.. never would have guessed (sarcasim)

You Are Reverse Pocky

Your attitude: rebellious and clever Non-conformist, but curiously a trendsetter With you, up is down... and it's a wild ride!

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

You Are a German Shepherd Puppy

Intelligent, quick witted, and a bit aggressive. You've got the jaw power to take a bite out of anyone you choose.

There sooo cute!

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 60% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Lol.. ive heard a few cheesy pick up lines.. boy did they suck!

Your Passion is Gray

Your sexual attitude is best described as apathetic. Often joking that you're asexual, you can go months without getting any. For you, great sex does not make or break a relationship. If it happens, it's just the icing on the cake.

Never thought that would be me! lol

im leaving u all! im going to beths house.. prolly wont b back till wed... going to idlewild and spending the nite tonite! whoot! 30 bucks... gonna try to save as much as possible 4 other stuff... well ttyl!

*dayna*

Wow.. yesterday was really fun... went to the amusement park and went on basically all the better rides... i spent like 5 bucks there all day so i still have like 22 dollars left..(yes!).. and im making 20 bucks this weekend letting out my neighbors dog and feeding it (yes! again!)... so yea everything (including my love life) is looking up! whoot!

*Dayna*

When was the last time you ... --------------------------------

Smiled?: Umm.. like yesterday!

Laughed?: Yesterday

Cried?: a while ago

Were sarcastic?: cant remember.. but its often

Kissed someone?: Couple Days ago

Talked to an ex?: Couple days ago

Watched your favorite movie?: Like.. 4 or 5 months ago

Had a nightmare?: 3 weeks ago

A Last time for everything... ---------------------------------------

Last book you read: Dark Secrets- Dont Tell

Last movie you saw: Bewitched

Last song you heard: Dunno

Last time you showered: Today

Last thing you ate: Rice Cake

Do You... -----------------------------------------

Smoke?: um.. no! never will!

 Do drugs?: again never will

Have sex?: not rite now

Sleep with stuffed animals?: nope

Live in the moment?: Sorta...

Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: not technically.. but i love him alot

Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Lol. No.. but i have a lot of dreams that im being killed...?

Play an instrument?: Yep...

Remember your first love?: Yep.. tho i dont want to

Still love him/her?: No! he cheated on me with 3 other grls (no its not nik)

Read the newspaper?: Um.. yea.. i like looking at the houses

Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Yes

Believe in miracles?: Sorta.. they seem to happen alot 

Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Definatley.. I could... 

Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Most of the time.. but if i want to then i wont be

Consider love a mistake?: At times i want to.. but now im starting not to

Like the taste of alcohol?: Wouldnt know

Have a favorite candy?: Yep.. Starbursts

Believe in astrology?: no.. but there have been some weird coincidences when it came to me reading them..

Believe in magic?: At the moment no...

Believe in God?: Yeppers!

Pray?: Only sumtimes

Go to church?: Never

Have any secrets?: Not many 

Have any pets: Coco!

Do well in school?: Sorta

Go to or plan to go to college?: Nope.. i wanna go to beauty skool 

Have a major?: Not yet

Talk to strangers who instant message you?: Nope..

Wear hats?: Rarely

Have any piercings?: 2

Have any tattoos?: nope

Hate yourself?: at times.. then i get over it 

Have an obsession? Yea!

Have a secret crush? Its not a secret... 

Do they know yet?: Yep!

Collect anything?: Icons.. (how i got on that idk) 

Have a best friend?: A couple

Wish on stars?: Nope

Like your handwriting?: Yea! i love it 

Have any bad habits?: Talking to much when i get tired...

Care about looks? Mine.. yea when i wanna look good 

Boy/girlfriend's looks?: Dont have one.. but if i did then i really wouldnt care

Believe in witches? not really

Believe in Satan?: Yes

Believe in ghosts?: Kinda... watch 2 many ghost movies

wow.. jus noticed sumthing.. have a verrrrrrrrrry small house! atleast compaired to all the ones in the newspaper and my friends... my room is like the size of beths bathroom! thats tiny! i could fit like 4 of my rooms in her room too! i am definatley getting a big house when i move out.. atleast where i dont have to worry about not being able to fit everything in my room! cant wait!

*DaYnA*

wow.. this is a new theme.. hm... i like it! ne how.. i have been up to absoulutly nothing! this summer is soooo long! i dont want it to b over but like.. i need sumthing to do!but ne way.. love life is really good! :D nothing really specific that im gonna mension since my bro is like hovering over me! i hate that! but ne way.. if ne of u wanna talk to me my name on yahoo is punkskatergrl8854 or just email me on that

*dayna*

A cold dark nite

She sat wrapped in a blanket

Thinking about him

And every single thing she loved about him

As the fire burned

Her mind raced

It couldnt seem to keep up

There were too many to count

He was perfect

Red-brown hair, dark brown eyes

A wonderful man

Made her smile everytime he walked by

From the 1st hello she knew

He would be the greatest thing for her

Some one who cared

He was amazing and she hoped never to say goodbye

The big risks she took

When she finally told him i love you

The words that he said back

Gave her a permanent smile

Her mind strayed from her thoughts

There was a light knock on the door

As she walked over to answer

Her heart raced in surprise

The door open

With him on the other side

Standing Perfectly still

While gazing into her eyes

A cold dark night

She sat wrapped in a blanket

Thinking of him

And how they were meant to be

****************************

One point to make to all of you i know that it dont rhyme.. its not supposed to! so dont even bother tellin me.. and.. if ne ones wondering.. its about sum 1.. but it didnt really happen.. its a daydream... the guy its about.. i luv him.. alot (emphisis on alot) hope he reads this!

*DaYnA*

Ha! my mind is making me so freaking mad! i woke up at 8 this morning b/c i had a song that i hate stuck in my head.. so i just woke up.. rite now im listening to "the best of you"... i like that song.. and seriously.. ryan is not a good singer... ugh... im not the greatest either so i dont have much room to talk.. lol... my yahoo is being so freaking gay! i hate it at times! so yea...

*dAyNa*

ok.. nik thinks hes fat... HES NOT! ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY! shabina cant choose between chris or jon so shes making nik choose left or rite... i love zach! (how'd that get there.. lol) im like so hungry but theres nothin to eat in the house.. and wow.. ryan is always bumping me off the com cuz he has to talk to nicole and megan.. i dont even know who they r .. all i know is one day he was looking at a pic of one of them.. and she was such a slut! geez!im being so odd rite now.. lol.. but i do love zach! yay me!

*dAyNa*

ever wanted to know sumthing really bad and they wouldnt tell u?  yeah.. sux dont it! i hate it! i wish that i would know what it was.. i hate it when i dont know stuff! i normally know alot of stuff... alot of useless stuff but its sumthing.. and now im going to go flip out cuz i dont know!

*dAyNa*

ok.. well now i have hi5, mindsay, and myspace! whoo! thats alot to keep up with.. on myspace sum how my theme changes without me doin it.. i guess sum 1 likes to get on my account and change it *rolls eyes* o well.... it looks kool tho!

*dayna*

@-).... wow.. im like so spaced out rite now... and we all know thats never good!.. i am jus trying to think of what is gonna happen to me.. its really bad.. i have to be protected b/c of it... which means its even worse...and it has to do with my love life... which means its as bad as it can get... i jus wanna know what it is! cuz like... being crazy= no good... !!!!

*crazy me...*

wow.. this morning was pretty awesome already! i got a new cd... The Killers "Hot Fuss"... so yea thats really cool... i am actually kind of in a good mood today! :D thats a first.... but.. of course.. when im in a good mood most other ppl arent... its just weird like that.. had a weird dream last nite too.... i was in sum show and this guy killed one guy with a knife thru the eye.. and then he took the knife and put it thru the middle of his own throat.. and then there was another guy who was there and there were alot of ppl watching.. and hes said, "ok who's next?" then he grabbed sum 1 from the ppl that were watching and he put her up on these things that hand cuffed her to a wall and then took the knife and stabbed her stomache.. and i screamed stop and then he threw the knife at me and i died.. seem to do alot of dieing in my dreams.. hm.. go figure...

*dayna*

whoot! now i know! and now i wish that i had a brick wall to punch! me and nicole (hi!) both supposivly like zach.. and #2 we're supposivly "competing" for him... this is all according to nik.. ok and nik said that if i ever went out with zach shed want to kill me and him... ?!?!?! that aint good! i wanna b friends with nicole but i dont wanna lose zach in the process.... im going crazy! again! holy geez do i hate this... nik is like my best friend for tellin me this.. i am so happy i know now... now im jus confused b/c he also thinks neither of us r gonna get zach!.. well duh! i think this is the first time i ever was scared of being killed b/c of a guy! so there u all go! im scared! i jus wanna punch sumthing rite now... idk y she would kill me... and i know she couldnt.. im not stupid ...

well.. gonna go flip out!

*Dayna*

still so messed up in the head... dunno what to do... my heads spinning in circles.. 1 good thing.. i can draw really good pix when im sad and mad and stuff..

*dayna*

YAY! i jus had so much fun! brookes b/f was i think thinking about cheating on her..so i had fun telling him off... but then he got mad and left! hahaha... i win! ok.. had way too much fun i know.. but it was ... it was wayyy fun... he got mad after i said that brooke was way too good for him and that i couldnt believe that shed go out with skum.. ha.. i dont even think thats that mean... hm... idk.. well ne way..atleast im in a better mood!

*dAyNa*

of course.. the day that i have the computer all to myself till 2.. i wake up late!.... i had a weird dream.. and of course as usual.. there was death and there was blood... and the only difference is.. I DIDNT DIE! whoo! thats a first! ok besides that.. still waiting 4 sumtime when zach will b on... and im still waiting 4 nik... he should b on sumtime soon i hope... well ne way.. byes!

*Dayna*

ok... i just got done doing my moms hair.. its really short so i could spike it and stuff... (i wasnt doing it so she could go out or ne thing....) i put her hair in a mohawk... it looked so funny! lol!

*Dayna*

GOD DAMNET PPL NEED TO REPLY TO THERE FUCKING EMAILS ONCE IN A WHILE!

i am having a pretty good day today besides not getting a reply from nik... i got the Gorillaz and Hawthorne Heights Cds and im gonna go to this awesome party on the 6th 4 nicole .. shes gonna b 13 so shes having a huge party... everyones like a year younger than me!  so yea.. im having an awesome day... :D .. and i read this bulletin on mindsay that nik put up that said im missing sum 1.. ?... coincidence? maybe... who knows.. obviously not me ..

*dayna*

So stand by and watch this fall away and fall apart...

Wake up, now its over, just tell me its ok to die...

Disolve and decay theres nothing left for me...

So here we are back to the start again...

As the days go by the memories remain...

I wont let go...

These days remain the same.. the pictures fade..

well.. *sigh*...  nik responded.. he dont like me ne more.. o well shouldve guessed... ok.. well.. i was talking to nicole basically all day.. shes going out with jay now.. and im not that jealous.. now i think of jay as more of a brotherly person... and now nicoles gonna try and get steven to go out with me.. he called today and i was like.. huh? and so yea.. hes awesome...  and i was in ryans room being stupid 4 no reason and i broke his model and his knife case... oops.. then i was doin an ollie and i broke ryans trucks on his board .. so he was really mad.. so now i feel fat.. I BROKE A SKATEBOARD! NOT EVEN ZACK DID THAT! AND HE WEIGHS AS MUCH AS ME! :( that makes me sad... but i cant wait to go to nicoles party.. its gonna b awesome.. beach theme so everyones wearin a bikini cept me cuz i dont like wearing mine in public! lol.. actually i wouldnt mind.. but steven mite b going... :D .. dont wanna do that!

*dayna*

Fill this our ppl....

BE 100% HONEST OR ELSE DIE. lol just kiddin tho plz be honest and not generous


- - - - - - ? YES or N0
Ugly? :
Kind? :
Loud? :
Shy? :
Weird? :
Selfish? :
Ghetto? :
Crazy?:
Nice? :
Mean?:
Immature? :
Rude?:
Cool? :
Stupid? :
Caring? :
Mature? :
A friend? :
More than a friend? :
Talkative? :
Boring? :
Hott :
Creative? :
Smart? :
A flirt? :
A psycho? :
Athletic? :
Confusing? :
Sweet? :
Annoying? :
Funny? :
Hyper? :
Laid back? :
Perfect? :

- - - - - - ? iF Y0U C0ULD
Give me a new name, what would it be ?:
Hook me up with someone, who would it be ?:
Do one thing with me, it would be ?:
Drop me one piece of advice, it would be ?:

- - - - - - ? W0ULD Y0U
Kiss me ?:
Have sex with me ?:
Ever go out with me ?:
If you already have, would you do it again ?:
Marry me if you could ?:
Ever talk bad about me if we were to break up ?:

- - - - - - ? QUESTi0NS
What is my phone number?:
Which song reminds you of me?:
When is my birthday?:
Who is/are my best friend/s?:
Where did we meet?:
Have you ever had a dream about me? Describe it.:
If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
What do you love about me?:
Describe me in 3-5 words...:

why bother lieing to myself

when i know the feelings there

i wanna tell myself i dont

but then im not being fair

cuz i know that i luv u

in every single way

ur sweet, sensitive, and sexy

and u help me every single day

but there is one problem

its a really long yard

and i know that not seeing u

would get really hard

i know ill have to wait

but i can wait 4 u

cuz there is no experation date

on sumthing thats so tru

yay! thnx alot 2 zach who helped me a lil.. thats y its about him... hmm.. hope u like it sweetie!

*dayna*

i got this one from  reina 

1. ONE WISH?

at the moment... that i didnt live in pa

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
uh.. both maybe? idk.. prlly a lover...

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
um.. prlly that ill never get married! lol

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
No.. didnt own ne

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
um.. depends..

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
not really..

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
um.. sure.. y not..

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?

awww.. hell no!

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
black

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
um.. yea..

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
um.. no never plan to..

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
If there secret.. how would i kno?

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
uh.... sumwhere snowy...

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Who...?

15. CAN YOU SWIM?
yeppers

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
no never heard of it...

17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?
not really.. if we wanna destroy it.. good for us

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?
too many..

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
ha.. no

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?

uh.. no i dont wanna either

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
ha.. no.. and im glad

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?

electric

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
if ur gonna eat it.. then its ok.. if ur not... ur a murderer!

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
haha.. i hope!

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yea.. i love it.. its big and really unique...

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
uh... chocolate... and dogs...

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE U"?
uh.... a few days ago.. but its bound to happen today

28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?

uh.. no... duh...

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
i prolly will cry at mine

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?

um.. cooked..

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
well.. no.. there jus ditzy at times.. like me!

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
?.. what sock?

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
4:05

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
uh.. day by shabina but thats it

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?

eh.. i dont love it..

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
when i went ... to drop off ryan at joshes 3 days ago

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Bath... i dont like to stand..lol

38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
hahaha.. no!

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
lol.. maybe :D

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
not really.. jus when im in old houses..

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?

uh.... flirting and guyz! lol

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
Crunchy

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
ha.. yea but it sounds sick

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
Nopers

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?

1

ok .. nother free verse... u can all guess who its about!

the vase shattered against the wall

she threw it in rage

the flowers fell to the floor

she sat on the colorful bed

her tears flowed

the snake wouldnt get his way

she grabbed nothing and ran for the door

the darkness surrounded

it was far to go but she would make it

the beautiful home came into view on the horizon

it was daybreak

she ran as fast as she could towards the house

she knocked on the door hoping for him to answer

he opened the door

and she stared with tears running down her face

he embraced her with love and wiped her tears

he held her close

she ran her hands thru her hair trying to realize it wasnt a dream

he invited her in and she entered in delight

she smiled at him

he smiled back as they leaned in to kiss...

but obviously not! either way too bad.... i havent talked to nik in a while.. hes been getting mad easy.. me too tho... but besides that i talked to will again.. its been a while.... and ive been talking to zach alot.. its been fun! :D .. hes so awesome... i seem to always be saying awesome when i write about him.. hm... who knows.... but hes great.. love him lots... yep yep....

*dayna*

deep? not a chance... ok well... rite now im really tired.. i went to bed at like midnight.. and then this morning ryan woke me up at like 7 so i could cook breakfast for him josh and kodi.... ?... i didnt want to but i did ne way... last nite i got a board! yayyyy! its really tore up and crap but the trucks r good.... i can ride... but i tried to ollie.. yea.. i did it like twice in a half hour.. my bodys reallly tired... we walked from my house to billy bell and the church.. i met zacks bro elijah... and then we went to josh and kodis house... from there we came back to my house... went up to sanitarium... and then went down lackhock... sum dude was stoned and we were off the road.. and hes like.. next time effin move... and we all screamed eff u at him.. arent we nice? .. well.. now im jus waiting 4 zach.... :)...

*dayna*

Did you know kissing is healthy

Bananas are good for period pain

Its good to cry

Chicken soup actually makes you feel better

94% of boys would love it if you sent them flowers

Lying is actually unhealthy

Only apply mascara to your top lashes

Its actually true, boys DO insult you when they like you!

Its impossible to apply mascara with your mouth closed!

89% of guys want YOU to make the 1st move

Chocolate will make you feel better!

Most boys think its cute when you say the wrong thing.

A good friend never judges.

A good foundation will hide hickeys!..not that u have any

Boys arent worth your tears

We ALL love surprises!!

Now.... make a wish!

Wish REALLLLLLY hard!!!

WISH WISH WISH WISH

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Congratulations!! Your wish has just been received repost this in the next 15mins and...Your wish WILL BE GRANTED

haha.. skateboarding theme now! yes! so happy .. idk the dude doin the trick up ^^^ there.... i just know it looks kool! :D

*dayna*

not going with the "trend".. hate my middle name...

ok.. i wrote another poem.. but theres a catch.. i 4got to write it down.. :D... i wrote it in an email.. (guess who 4?) and haha... i didnt write it down.. oops..

*dayna*

watched it last nite.. the only things that scared me were the parts when ppl slamed up against the tv/ car window.. yep... besides that it wasnt that bad....

*dayna*

*sigh*.. is he avoiding me? or is he jus really buzy? who knows.. he does.. but will he tell me or keep not answering my emails.. and my ims .. and im going crazy! so yea rite now.. not in a good mood.. *bleh*.. plus i think i mite be becoming more and more of an insomniac... i cant fall asleep till like 2 or 3 and i get up at 6 or 7...

*dayna*

im finally eating dinner... and it tastes like cardboard! watching upside of anger.. and the cute guy has to be gay!.. how do things like this work?!

*dayna*

wow.. i need to be more specific in my blogs! i got nik thinking its him that i think is avoiding me.. I TALK TO HIM EVERYDAY! .. how would that be avoiding me?! i really think its zach.. i havent talked to him in like 3 days so.. not good... its seems that everyone i kno loves one girl.. nicole!... so happy b-day nicole! ppl love you!

*dayna*

Her heart shattered like glass

When she read those words

Her heart felt destroyed

And then ran over again

When she saw the reply

To what he said

She loved him too

and now it was done

She ran to her room

Took the knife

Slit her wrist

and just cried and cried

She loved him too

but there was no chance

and with one quick slit

she took her life...

wow... for once a free verse isnt about zach... its about nik for once..... hm.. o well.. if u havent guessed yet i have no intesions to do that... im so not like that... but ... i do wish that i could change ppls mind... but.. not that perswasive....

its kinda funny really.. i assume the worst too much... :D .. well.. i found this cool site .. its call download.com.. its really cool.. everythings free so i can get as much as i want.. no spyware either.. yay!

*dayna*

well.. im in a lil bit of a better mood... i talked to nik and he helped me feel better! so yea.. it helped.. and now im confused.. cuz ppl r trying to classify me!im not ne thing.. im not emo.. not punk..not goth.. not preppy.. not skater.. so what am i u ask?.. im me! there really is nothing to classify me as.. im like a lil bit of everything.. i have my punk/skater moments.. i have my preppy moments.. and i have my emo moments.. no more labels for me.. there too confusing..

*dayna*

ok.. i like kodi again... and i dont know if i should tell him.... hes my brothers friend.. my bro and his bro are friends.. but im always havin dreams im goin out with him... like.. do i tell him?

*dayna*

changed my theme again! yay! nitmare is what the pic is called up there ^ and i jus liked the pic :D ..

*dayna*

i hate when ppl ask obvious questions... but w/e be stupid idfc... i was thinking about the whole kodi thing last nite.. its not gonna happen..

I do what nik said and....

possibility 1...he pushes me away...

possibility 2... he yells at me

possibility 3... he tells ryan and josh and they all laugh at me..

possibility 4.. he actually likes it but doesnt like me

The After math...

Bad: we dont go out and its awkward around him when i go skating if im not kicked off the team that i barely made it on in the 1st place. and he tells everyone around skool.

Good: we go out

If we do go out...

1) hes gonna break up with me like zack did b/c its "too hard to be friends with ryan and go out with his sister"

2) hes gonna break up with me if i do sumthing stupid at nicoles party

3) or im gonna break up with him cuz he tells his friends what we do

4) hes gonna break up with me for no reason at all...

So rite now i really dont know the point of telling him if its all gonna turn out bad.. and i dont know what to do about it.. i think im jus gonna 4get kodi... nothing good ever happens from me going out with my brothers friends and that bugs me.....

*dayna*

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what that can always mean, because it can be defined in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were the spirits of passed away people who are neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing when you expect it least. So hence, if you have a Lost Soul, then you are probably very insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box, you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont know your place. You seemingly dont have a place in society or an interest. You are a very capricious person, and are confused and frustrated about where you belong. You crave for the sense and feeling of home-but have not obtained it yet.

You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat fear in your readers. You love to poke their brains with logic dealing with the darker side of the human mind and character. Truly surprising and a true individual, you'll do ANYTHING to create a scene. :)

You're a NYMPH!

Your Existing Situation

Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.

Your Stress Sources

Eager to make a good impression, but worried and doubtful about the likelihood of succeeding. Feels that she has a right to anything she might hope for, and becomes helpless and distressed when circumstances go against her. Finds the mere possibility of failure most upsetting and this can even lead to nervous prostration. Sees herself as a 'victim' who has been misled and abused, mistakes this dramatization for reality and tries to convince herself that her failure to achieve standing and recognition is the fault of others.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Feels the situation is hopeless. Strongly resists things which she finds disagreeable. Tries to shield herself from anything which might irritate her or make her feel more depressed.

Your Actual Problem

Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. Her refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.

Your Actual Problem #2

Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. This feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation and acute distress. She reacts by considering that she has been victimized, and insists--with indignation, resentment, and defiance--on being given her own way.

all the grey ones are from some color quiz thing.. but they all go together

NO! kalie cant move! that wont b cool! who else will i talk to on the bus?! but besides that things r goin pretty good!my love life is turning upward! im pretty sure rite about now sruffs about to hit the sky :D and i luv it!im all smiley again!hehe.. and im jus in such a good mood! idk y but every single time that i talk to zach he jus makes me in such a good mood! its like.. idk what it is.. it jus happens sum how.. so .. i give him much gradatude (ha.. didnt kno i knew that word) for that.... :D

*dayna*

thats write! the aftermath is here.... and its still pretty good .. and i jus woke up like.. half hour ago so im still a lil out of it.. but... still.... very good mood.. im finally allowed to go vegan! whoo! im still gonna eat fish tho... cuz thats allowed.. cuz its a different kinda vegan.... :) so im happy! very happy! and im eating waffles.. cant beat that... and oj... which is jus as good.... :D.. and ppl r actually on this morning! whoo!

*dayna*

i really dont know what is making me so like this... im seriously am in the good moods when im totally my goofy self... and i already think im scaring ppl .. lol.. o well.. they all luv me ne way... lol.. :D im like so happy!.... i think all the mints i ate made me like this!

well.. im as happy as can b rite now... :D.. the guy that i luv (if u all dont kno.. then.. i dont wanna mension his name.. but .. he knos who he is :)* ... he is so sweet.. hes seriously... like... my definition of perfect... and .. yea... thats basically the only way i can explain it.. he makes me so happy!.. :).. and im gonna change all my passwords so ppl cant get on my stuff no more! :D..

*dayna*

yup.. im watching the ring... for like the 5th time.. its pretty funny really.... and im in a pretty good mood still... the only thing that made me in a lil bit of a bad mood was that brookes b/f got on and started yellin at me and im like.. wth did i do?! so yea... idc ne more... he can hate me.. o and im still in a pretty good mood from b4 when i was talking to zach.. he is so sweet...

*dayna*

i just woke up.. and man am i still tired.. i was up till like 3 or 4 yesterday jus thinking and smiling... ha.. would ya imagine that? :) .. and now im going to go eat...

*dayna*

ok.. im watching... "never been kissed"... and its pretty good... actually.. it kinda reminds me of sumthing... i jus cant place my finger on it tho.. hmm.. more of a chick flick tho... i bet sum guyz would like it tho... and i really did learn sumthing tho! penguins spend there whole lives looking for their mate.. and as soon as they meet them.. they spend the rest of their life together.... wow.. really random.... but ne way.. things still goin good in my life.. and wow... its been a while since things have been this good... :D.. hope they dont change! i luv this movie... its cute.... and now im thinking about him... (him being the guy i like)... hehe... and i luv him... alot.. alot alot... alot alot alot... hehe.. u get the point.. so either way.. im goin boarding..

*dayna*

well.. just got back from boarding with josh ryan and kodi... that was fun.. tho i got made fun of alot idc... :D im actually starting to get a lil better at boarding.. hehe.. i went down a huge hill w/o falling! yay! lol .. and i ollied! yay again!... hehe.. now if only i could ollie more than once.... hm...

*dayna*

this mornins not going to well... my dads kinda bein arrogant... i am thinking way too much about everything.... and it seems like i should jus go back to bed.. wait... make that go to bed period.. i didnt sleep at all last nite... i was up all nite b/c ppl were being so loud.. and every lil thing was waking me up.... hopefully nicoles party's awesome today...

*dayna*

Landmine

Has taken my sight

Taken my speech

Taken my hearing

Taken my arms

Taken my legs

Taken my soul

Left me with life in hell

parties soon.. im already ready.. cuz i like to chat w/ ppl till then.. heh.. i look ok i guess.. my main idea of what i look like is basically a rocker.. silver hoops ... leather wristband... my gellies.. tennies... capris (jean)... and im wearing my famous "ill try being nicer if u try being smarter" shirt (its pink by the way).... my hair is down for once! and it did its own thing... it curled in at my "bang" area... and towards the middle and in the back it flaired out.... so it looks awesome.. and since i parted it to the other side the bangs on my left side keep goin in my face.. but its ok idc... it actually looks better like that... my makeup looks awesome too... a really bright purple eyeshadow.. but it actually isnt that bright on me... lots of clack mascara... black eyeliner on my bottom lashes... clear lipgloss.. and i look descent! whoot!

but besides that ... stuff had got to come to an end soon.. rite? rite... well... it did... and allllll of this is annoying me to death.. blah.. its times like this when u wanna baseball bat.. lol..

*dayna*

yep... party last nite was fun.. truth or dare was awesome.. lol... not much happened.. couple funny things... nicole had to kiss a tree! lol... dreams were weird last nite... will was in it.... and sum other ppl.... im not allowed to chat.. yet again! idk y my dad has problems with that?! its so stupid...

*dayna*

I am rather bored at the moment... and im so tired... i didnt sleep again last nite... well.. i slept a lil.. but i had really weird dreams... *sigh*.... lifes so complicated at the moment.. email is my new best friend since new rules suck... i need 1) less strict parents and 2) a stress monkey... ya know... one of the ones that when u squeeze them there eyes pop out... i think id jus b funny to watch there eyes pop out.. heh... for once the launchcast radio is playing good songs.. like breaking benjamin at the moment... i wanna do sumthing stupid b/c im bored... and for once ... i cant think of ne thing stupid... whoa.... weird... but ne way... still frustrated w/rules... and they dont apply with ryan either... :(... that sux so much... and i wanna get the net on my computer so i could find one of them free music downloaders so i wouldnt have to buy cds.... and id need to get an ipod... maybe thats what i should ask 4 4 my bday.... maybe... o and more good news! I actually get to have a sweet sixteen! in 2 years... which will change cuz i kno my parents... heh.. ryan dont get one.. haha.. thats sad... i wish he could.. cuz he deserves one.. maybe ill throw him one!... nah... cant.. no money.... im broke.. ha.... like thats ne thing unnormal...

*one stressed me*

im so mad rite now i feel like 1) im gonna throw up 2) im gonna cry and 3) i wanna beat sum 1s face in... and its not b/c of the new rule.... its 4 sumthing different.. and has not a thing to do with my luv life.... :(

*dayna*

it was all gone

All gone in an instant

The happiness, smiles and laughter

Gone with few words

She loved him with all her heart

But her father rebeled

She couldnt leave the boy alone

so her father tried to break her heart

"he's sum 1 on the net" he spoke

"like thers a chance in hell,

He could b different for all u kno

But u r stupid enough to fall"

She understood his words

As they tore her apart

Could they b tru?

Or does he want it his way?

She went to her room

Curled up in a ball

As she sat in the closet

And relived the past

It would seem the feelings were tru

But were they?

Or another chance for heartbreak?

She knew the truth

She luved him

And no one would change her mind

Even if they killed her

The feeling would live in her heart

yep.. thats rite... got an idea for a drawing in my sleep... i hope it turns out ok... lol... but ne way... im going shoppin today :D whoot! goin to jcpennys.... but besides that.. i slept last nite!!! yay!!! i slept for like 12 hrs.. :D lol... i so wish that ppl would get on... my dads not here so i can talk all i want.. to bad sum of my friends already went back to skool.... that would suck soo bad... although i kinda wanna go back jus to see all my friends i havent seen yet.. but either way im gonna end up missing kalie... even if no one buyz her house shes still movin to the other one :(.. makes me sad to see one of my best friends leave.. but besides that not much has been goin on in my life.. havent been able to talk to ppl much b/c of my dad... :( hate that hes like this... o and my mom got the phone bill.. and she found out i called nik :D .. heh...  o well ...

*dayna*

ok.. well.. i did sumthing very very different .... i asked will if he wanted to see a movie at my house.. didnt get an answer yet since i jus asked him... :D makes me nervous to think of the possible answers...

*me*

*gasps* so many thoughts ... two sides

Zach:

i luv him to death.... but am i ever really gonna get the chance to meet him?

He is so great to be around... but at the same time.. it feels like sumtimes theres sumthing that i cant figure out about him.... i dunno what it is .. i cant figure it out what i wanna kno...

he lives so far from here.. and that can b good... and that can b bad... cuz i will miss ppl here if i did go down to meet him... and it can b good.. cuz i cant start over again...

parents dont like him.... but thats not a huge downer... i dont like them half the time either

Will:

i luv him so much.. cuz hes like.... sum 1 i can b really comfortable around... and we can talk about ne thing... but at the same time.. same with zach...

he has broken my heart b4 even tho weve never went out.. hes lied to me... and thats sumthing that does make me think

I am totally willing to let him try again tho....

We would b able to see each other b/c he lives kinda close... but he goes to the high skool so i would miss him alot at skool...

So thats a very hard decision to make........

o and theres the problems about if he says yes or no 4 when he cums over

No:

Things will b awkward again...

tho it wouldnt b that bad b/c i wont see him at skool

Yes:

I would b like really nervous.. prolly till he got here then id b fine..

I wouldnt know what to wear!! prolly jeans and a tee rite?

What would i do with my room?! make it all romantic and stuff or jus leave it normal? wow.. thats alot to think about...

Must hide all pics of me that are in the house... and must hide all old family movies...

And theres the question of the movie... or will there be a movie? o.O

so yep.. thats alot to think about.... all help is welcome :D!

*dayna*

wondering about the theme? well.. i luv winter.. its the most awesome time of year... i luv the cold.. u can cuddle up with blankets and ur b/fs in front of a fireplace in the dark while watchin a romantic movie.... heh.. thats sounds pretty good to me!hehe.... and u can wear conservative clothing... like jeans and tee shirts! i luv dem! my signature outfit .. hehe... well.. winter rocks also cuz u get the nice warm food... mm... o and my favorite .. hot chocolate! hehe...

*dayna*

well... im totally getting better.. talking is alot better than sitting around... shabina and nik.. there both awesome.. luv em both like family... only there alot better than my family... they actually support me.. they r like my brick walls... they have my back.. and i owe them plenty for that... but ne way... i am a happy person now! b/c i got good food .. mmm... gonna bond with y turkey sandwich now...

*dayna*

whoa.. kool... pplz r here! :D zack here... ryans here... josh and kodi mite b comin over later.... but the only thing is... that i heard ryan talking... there all spending the nite !!! maybe.. if they are then.... o.O .... lots and lots of ppl... hehe.... that pic up there ^^^ by me! i luv it...

new theme again! luv... its awesome... pretty pretty pretty... hearts and couples.. *sighs* its so beautiful... lol

*dayna*

hehe... i still have "Helena" stuck in my head... it has been since this mornin... hehe... still havent got ahold o will... o well... drew a nother pic... its pretty good... its a faerie with a sword next to it... it looks ok... rite now im sitting here with a sigh of relief cuz no ones spendin the nite! :D yay! i cleaned the whole house today ! o.O ... without bein asked... o.O... whoa.. thats a first...

*dayna*

yep.. goin shoppin tomorrow.. gonna make myself look at beautiful.. lol... nah.. jus gonna make myself look hott to go shopin 4 shoes... lol... but besides that i kno tonites gonna b a sleepless nite.... gonna b thinkin alot about today... but really.... i dont think its as bad as i made it out to b... i mean like... so what? its not like its the end of the world rite? riiiiiite... oks then... must be happy... :D < see smiles! yay smiling!

*dayna*

i have been so bored the past like... hr.. that i read like... 4 and a half chapters in my book! wow.... o and ... i called wills house! yayyy... it wasnt buzy... for once... it rang.. but no one picked up.. :(... i didnt kno who to ask 4 ne way.. young will? will? will....? theres 3 in the house! who am i supposed to ask 4? lol

*Dayna*

I've blogged many many times today... o.O ...hmm... now for the good news! i am happpppppy!!!!!!!!!!! whooooot!

dun dun dun...

to be continued lol

*Dayna*

still soooo tired... i woke up at like.. 9.. and i went to sleep at like... 12... y am i tired? idk... but i finshed "the sisterhood of the traveling pants" last nite... its amazing... i finshed a book! ^_^ ... hehe... so besides that .. jus waitin to hear niks bad news ... i have to wait b/c hes not up yet.. but o well.... dont kno if i wanna hear it .. but i better... :-/ .... i think i kno what it is... but im prolly rong. :D

*dayna*

.................. exactly what my life is at the moment... and if ur askin y my themes all fucked up... idk im to lazy to fix it...  i do need to tho.. maybe ill do that later...

so rite now im tired.... i have a very weird kind of headache... its seems like it was caused by stress... frustration.. and being confused at the same time.... and afraid.... wow.. what a combo... now... i think im gonna go get sum advil or tylonel or sumthing...

*dayna*

ITS BACK! yep.. thats rite! winter is back! i luv winter.. 4 all the old reasons i said b4...

Romantic Settings

Cuddling

CHRISTMAS!

New years...

Super Bowl

Moonlight walks in the snow

Cuddling on the couch while watching a cute movie

WILL FINALLY GOT ON! yayyyyy!bad news tho... he cant cum over cuz his parents dont trust him! :( lol! i wonder y o.O... lol i think i kno! hehe.. im so happy! im having a happy attack! yyyyyaaaayyy happy! wondering why i happy still? cuz we mite b goin to the mall with ryan... were prolly gonna ditch ryan and go watch a movie! lol! i luv will! hes so cute! and no more prob with ryan and will! ryan dont hate will no more! yayyyyy! so today is good!

*dayna*

ok.. last nite i had this really odd dream.. all i remember is hugging will in my hallway 4 a real long time... ? .... yea i kno .. weird huh? but the thing is i kno there was more to it then that ... but i jus cant remember it... o well.. but im starting to think dreams are jus realities that havent happened yet... like... not all of the parts are completley tru like when u float and stuff.. but u gotta dig deeper and try to find what it means... wow... im starting to sound like a psyciatrist.... o.O... but besides that pretty normal mornin.. woke up.. got a shower... and now im here.... *yawn*... today is gonna b such a stupid day... cuz i kno that wills not gonna b on... cuz he has soooo much to do durin the summer its pothetic! every time he gets on hes on for like a half hour then he leaves to go cut the lawn or sumthing.. and hes on like once a week... >.> ... that kinda makes me sad.... but besides that i still mite be goin to the movies with him... but were gonna half to pic him up ... but im still excited! ^_^ .. makes me happy to think that stuff mite finally work out between us!

*dayna*

finally download aim ... what do i have to do? uninstall it... >.>... that is so gay! i hate not having the net on my computer.... of course.. im "too irresponsible" according to my parents to get it... o well.. ill get it when i move out and ill basically live on it when im not workin...lol...

*dayna*

hmm... i jus noticed this was in italics.... its all slanty... o.O

idk what u ppl wanna call me... im not totally punk and i kno that.. im not emo either... and i dont know why ppl wanna test crap.. i dont think thats its all that great to label ppl... actually im totally against it tho i did it myself with my screen name... but really.. its kinda hard to think of em.... this is sumthing i am asking of everyone.. FORGET LABELS! no one is what they say! there just themselves and if they wanna call themselves punk or preps or rockers or jocks then jus deal with it.. but dont let other ppl label u! u kno what u r... and thats exactly it.. ur u!

*dayna*

Today is already goin pretty fast... i woke up at like.. 9 or 930... and then i got up, cleaned my room, and made myself look all pretty... lol .. saturdays seem to be the days that i get everything done... hm... well.. other than that im gonna go look 4 pix for my room...

*dayna*

im not exactly sure.... maybe that im not all concerned about screwin everyone and im more concerned about having an actual relationship ... i hate how horney sum ppl r... specially when there like it on my friends.... as far as im concerend.. if ur grabbing on my friends.. im breaking ur fingers... and i dont mean just one.. i mean all of them... one by freaking one....

didnt wake up till like.. 1030 this mornin.. dad woke me up to do the dishes... >.> ... now ryans getting his hair cut and moms at work... so im sittin here bored as all heck....

*dayna*

didnt even mean to... pullin out a plug and it shocked me... O.o.... mhm... didnt hurt as bad as i thought it would.... *sighs* ... now im getting a list of stuff thats rong with my by ryan..... well if that dont thouroughly make me feel just wonderful about myself i dont know what will.... (sarcasm)... now i have to sit here and watch a movie thats called "the day after tomorrow" .... >.> ... dont really wanna watch it.... ill prolly fall asleep.. idk whats with me n' sleepin either.... *yawn*.... maybe ill go eat an apple.... or maybe ill eat chips... there r so many choices... and im supposed to b on a diet... heh.. so much 4 that....

yup... still havent hurd from will... is it buggin me? yup.. lots! heh.. i think im jus impatient... (heh... should have assumed that earlier) ... went over beths last nite... woke up this mornin and went downstairs and started chiselin the old linoluim... (idk if thats spelled rite.. and if u cant figure it out then its the stuff thats on the floor).... so besides that today has been a pretty borin day....

*DaYnA*

ha... im so sad.... i cant think too much ne more.. its buggin me.... i have been thinkin so much and trying to figure out alot... idk what exactly.. sumthing.. and sumthings missing in my life.. i jus cant figure out what exactly it is...i dont know if its sum 1 or sumthing .... but its one of the two... or maybe its just me... idk how that would make sense but maybe im missing myself... o and... parents read my magazine and it was about the dangers in online dating.... >.>... so i got a lecture.... >.>... makes me sad that there still mad about the whole nik thing... whoo.. i went out with him for like a week! and its not like its a big deal.... it was at the time but its really not ne more.... and ryans goin to try to get his permit.... *looks scared* ... never in my life will i get in a car with him... im too scared to......

*dayna*

very odd dream.... but it was more like a nitemare b/c of what happened in it... most ppl who go to my skool will know who this person is... zack hildebrand.... he was in my dream last nite and we were making out in ryans room... then he left and sum other crap happened and ryan was leaving to go to the army so he gave me the key to his room.... (he has a key to his room?) then i guess it was the last day of skool and we were sitting on the bus... i was sitting with lauren or kalie and i told them about it and they were like "OMG" ... yea so then i woke up..

that was kinda a weird dream... maybe its tellin me im really desperate or sumthing.... o.O... i mean... like... i dont even have any feelings at all for zack.... so how did he get in my dream?... maybe theres sum kind of meaning to it being him.... or maybe its was jus a effed up dream.... who knows...

but today... heh.. i jus woke up at like 1045... got on here and started typing this... and listened to ryan laughing at sum movie... idk y i got up so late.... maybe b/c i was tired... didnt realize i was tho.... hm..

~ur favorite dreamer

changed my theme again... idk what u wanna call it... heh...who knows.. im tired still... and i jus woke up like 3 hours ago... how does that work?... ryans already getting on my nerves... hes always tellin me laundry and shit is a girls job and yet when he asks me to  take out the garbage and crap and i say it his job (cuz it is) he gets all pissed off... >.>... and i really dont feel like doin ne thing today.. maybe ill clean my room tho.... its a wreck... heh... hoping to find a better header pic.. that one kinda sux... maybe ill jus make one....

~ me as always...

ok... last nite... i had a dream that i was in my house and i came in from swimming and i saw that jay, a bunch of other guyz and will were all in my living room.... first person i saw was of course will... he smiled at me and i ran to my room threw actual clothes on and came back... i sat kinda far away from will at first... and jus watched them play video games... then i look over at will and he smiles again... (he smiles alot...)... so basically i go over there sit in his lap, we make out and he tells me he loves me... (i seem to b doin alot of making out in my dreams latley...) then we went to my room and fell asleep cuddling... (*sigh* if only this could happen in real life)....

So basically thats it... ive been thinking about it all morinin.... makes me feel all smiley and blushy... even tho it didnt really happen.... heh.. if only it would... my dad would prolly b mad if we fell asleep in my bed tho....

Last nite also josh and kodi spent the nite... played video games with em till 11.... then i went to bed.. surprisingly my dad asked if i wanted to sleep down there with em... O.O.... i was like.. nah... so later we're goin skateboarding... I CAN OLLIE YAY!

~ i luv will!

ok.... i jus read the newspaper (yea... i was bored) well... we mite not go back to skool on time.... and that means we'd start on september 20... THATS GONNA SUCK! if it happens ne way.... >.>.... it wed get out in like.. july if we did...

~ bored as all hell

heh.. i went shoppin again and got the my chemical romance cd... :D yay!

~ one happy head banger

yup.. beth is over rite now... she got contacts! so jealous! lol... i mite b gettin em in october tho... heh... so excited for that but i bet it wont happen...

~ me

yup... cookies back! yay! no one knows who cookie is besides me and shabina... so why do i keep puttin that? ... hm.... dunno.. but ne way... im pretty happy... besides the fact that my parents think that im overworking myself... >.>...  im not tho... hmm.... *yawns*... really bored tho... i think im gonna jus chill tommorow... cuz i think i mite b sore tomorrow... thinking about changing my theme too... idk what to tho...

~ thinking too much

i luv my new theme... it blinks! so its fun to watch! :D but ne way... im starting to wake up early again.... i woke up at like 8 today.... the poem up there ^ that was writen by mikey... he did a pretty good job dont cha think? i luv that... it made nicole and sam and rachel cry.... hm.... wonder y.. but besides that bored... like always

~ luvs blinking lights

thats rite.. it only took 4 hours -_-... yea... but it looks awesome...

theres lots of glittery things and a blinkie sum where.. lol.. i wonder if they work on here.. hm...

If ya wanna see go here http://www.myspace.com/punkskatergrl8854

its tru.. i cant wait to get out of this town and find sum where that i can do sumthing with my life! im so sick of having nothing to do all day.... *sigh* but besides that im still lookin at beauty skools.... like Empire Edge and Penn Commercial... but idk.. i want to go to college here but at the same time i wanna move out asap... but besides that i never got a reply from cookie.... :( and will still hasnt been on... dan's over.... and im really bored again...

~ one searching soul

i woke up pretty early today... i 4get my dreams which is weird.... today we mite b goin to the fair... and honestly i dont feel like it... ive been in like a sigh-ish blah mood 4 a while now... i wonder why....hm... but besides that not much has been going on...

i went to the fair yesterday.... and i heard sum guyz talking and they pointed to me and one was like "what about her?" and the other was like "um.. 7" ... so yea i had fun there.. besides the fact that i got wet... but yea... saw lots of ppl i knew... so lots of ppl checking me out too.. >.>... heh.. didnt kno i was so ... idk what u would call it... didnt kno ppl checked me out either hm...

~ very happy person

well... yesterday i went skateboarding twice... total of about 5 hrs... it was fun.. hung out with josh, kodi and zack.... god do i hate zack... hes such a fatass... but christian came too and he wanted to carry my board around since he dont have one.... so atleast i didnt have to carry it... but besides that i was actually suprised when kodi took me with him to go get water.. you'd think hed take sum 1 else.. hm.... nothin happened tho... >.> ... :( ... o well... it mite happen sum time...

15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About
  1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
  2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
  3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just     like you.
  4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
  5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
  6. You mean the world to someone.
  7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
  8. You are special and unique.
  9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
  10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
  11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most  likely turned your back on the world.
  12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
  13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
  14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
  15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

fixed my theme so now its all pink! lots of pink!

~ rocker with a luv for pink

im trying to get this stuff together like all my drawings and all my poems and all my old journals that i can find.. and sum old notes and stuff to put in my new journal / sketchbook thing... its not on here... its in my room... o.O .. heh... i have a big box of old cards and stuff to... its kool to look at stuff like that.... like looking at my old journal i jus found.. it was weird remembering all that shit.... it made me think how many ppl hurt me... but now how stuff is so good... its kinda different...

~ remembering

well.. ryans trying to black mail me.. >.>... not kool... aunt donna and pattys party is saturday so i get to see mike and his g/f drink again.. how fun ... (sarcasm) .. but ne way.. im thinkin alot lately... mostly about alot of ppl in my life... and how much they help.... one particurally... that person helps so much... (do u kno who u are ? O.o) heh... i bet u do.... :D ... atleast i hope u do... hm... but besides that my dads being a jerk yet again.. he dont freaking trust me at all! god is that so stupid... i wish that hed jus leave me the hell alone! jesus christ! it pisses me off that he cant even fucking trust me home alone! damn.... its like... u trust ryan to kick sum 1s ass and i can kick his half the time so y dont u trust me to defend myself? cuz ur a dick! and u guyz can tell me not to hate him all u want but it wont help! cuz i wish hed jus lemme do what i do... cuz i want to do what i do otherwise i wouldnt do it! im sick of him... i just want him to go away... but not die... and not leave the house.. i jus want him to back off and chill! hes so overprotective its driving me nuts! god! the total of him and ryan and my mom is driving me nuts!

Ryan never stops being a jerk and the only time hes not is when... well... rarely at random times...

Moms only nice when she feels like it... mostly when me and ryan arent fighting

Dad is just a jerk and very impatient... even when hes in a good mood hes mean... and god that sux... basically the only time hes in a good mood is when im gone 4 a while... and i dont like to leave b/c i have no where to go cept skateboarding

yup.. we got guild wars.... thats a pretty cool game.. besides that almost got busted 4 chatting when dad said not to.. >.> o well... heh... and i cant sleep past 8 anymore... hm... yup thats about it..

~ me

today was a pretty boring day... played guild wars.. got mad b/c of sumthin my dad said "u gonna use guild wars as another way to meet guys?" ... and now im ready to get back on guild wars... not much happened...

~ always thinking...

I went shopping again... yay shopping! i got a new purse, which is awesome, and i also got a new make up kit that has like 80 pieces for like.. 20 bucks... i am so happy! ya gotta have a selection ya kno? o and i got my hair cut.... it was jus a trim tho :D

~ bound to be beautiful

of every single person in the world.. i choose him... and thats not a bad thing... hes basically perfect... sweet... he understands.. makes me so happy... and always makes me feel like im perfect... even tho we all know im far from it... its like... everytime that im with him... everyone else isnt as important for the moment... its like.... he takes everything negative in my life and turns it around... what else could i ask for? i mean... besides all that hes even really hott! talk about the total package... sure there r the couple things that we dont have in common.... or are there ne? i seem to forget that alot... i mean... if this isnt love... then what is? ... the only question in my mind... is does he feel the same way? .... if u know who u r... plz let me know... cuz i luv u more than ne thing.... and i really wanna know...

~ the grl that luvs u

"Love isnt finding the perfect person, love is about finding an imperfect person perfectly." ~?

"Find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, and a heart that will love you at your worst, then you've found true love" ~?

"Love is when you dont want to go to sleep, because reality is better than a dream" ~?

"Here i go, scream my lungs out to try to get to you, you are my only one, i let go, but theres just kno one that gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one" ~Yellowcard "My Only One"

well... josh and kodi spent the nite last nite... and there still here.... >.>... thinking alot about him (the special him)... and im also thinking about what im going to do today... heh... not much... prolly jus gonna sit around and maybe do situps... i jus realized skools starting soon O.O ... not good.... tho i miss my friends... skool still sux.... but besides that life is still here... and i really wish that ryan didnt have to go to skool monday... tho that means i get the computer to myself for like 4 hours... i have to wake up at like 7 every morning.... y?... i have no clue.... o wel..

~ still waiting for his reply

New theme! My chemical romance! -_- ... im like.. half asleep .. im so tired... idk y... eh... i wish that i had sum thin to do.... >.>... josh and kodi left...

and note to all... I AM NOT DEPRESSED! U ARE ALL JUS STUPID AND ON CRACK!....

im so sick of ppl thinking that... well.... IM NOT! :-P geez... give me a chance to beat in ur face.. i will... and then ill laugh about it... as u all can tell im not in a very good mood....

Have fun swimming in your own blood...

~ they found u on the bathroom floor

*sigh* i feel like im a bowl of jello... strawberry preferably! lol... luv rocks... no one can say that luv sux.. cuz if ur saying luv sux.. u mean break ups suck... not luv.. luv rocks!

~ luvvy duvvy... aww.. lol

ryan killed him! he killed a poor lil ground hog! there so cute! but they do destroy our property... still sad... but besides that... im kinda out of it... since i jus woke up like a half hour ago... -_- .... i was really happy last nite... but 4 sum reason i didnt blog about it... hmm... o and good news!  i wrote a poem! yayyy me! wel... if ya wanna read it here ya go!

Lets hold hands

And slow dance

While they all stare

and we take this chance

Lets cuddle up

In front of the burning fire

As we tell each other

Every hope and desire

Lets ride down to the beach

To take a moonlit walk

And hear the waves crash

As we have a romantic talk

Lets hold each other

And kiss all nite

As we forget

Every fear and fright

Lets get lost

In each others eyes

And luv each other

Until one dies

If you havent realized

I really do luv u

And im jus so happy

You luv me too...

what cha think ppl? leave me one...

~ feeling romantic and luving him so much.... <3

yup... thats rite.. changed it again... Loves the theme b/c its sumthin that is totally awesome... and rite now im talkin to shabina and hearing the skateboards bang in the basement cuz kodi came over >.> read like every entry made since like ... 2 days ago... never realized how good banana bread was.. hm.. lol...

~ one very bored chicka

rite now im talkin to zach and nik .... heh... i havent talked to nik in a while...  hehe... im all smiley rite now... :))... too bad i only have like 5 minutes left online.. :( sux having a time limit... im goin north tomorrow... not till like 530 tho...

~ in luv with him...

i woke up at like...8 to go shopping with mom and ryan... THATS SO EARLY! we got out the lay away.... and im going shoe shopping again on wendsday.... i doubt ill get ne thin cuz mom always tries to get me such ugly shoes >.> ... and she never likes what i choose so i cant get them... but either way.. im going to go sit around....

~ the half dead me

u dont smack me in the face... how i wish i could have punched u in the stomache so hard it knocked u on ur ass and made u throw up all over urself... but of course... i held myself back.... how i wish that i didnt.... -_- ... if u havent guessed already im totally pissed off... why i am cursed with a concience idk...

~ very unaware....

well... yesterday i wrote alot about jus thoughts on pieces of paper... (there in my journal) and i ended up with 4 pages o.O ... wow.. but besides that not much is goin on....

~ quite a thinker

well.. jus got back from skateboarding... kinda fun.. i have to start waking up at 7 b/c i have to go with mom and ryan to take him to skool... tonites the VMA's ... gonna watch em... i hope i get my schedule tomorrow cuz i really wanna know whats goin on at skool 4 me... -_- .... im tired... idk y either... only thing i did was walk to billy bell.. up to pancake then back to billy bell then back to my house... thats not that much walking... o well...

but besides that dans over... he went with us skateboarding... josh got mad at me b/c his board went into the road and i didnt get it... >.> o well.. he'll get over it.. i got the chills again... idk y... o and i listen to every cd i own today ... as u can tell i was pretty bored.. so now im talking no shabina... checked out a few of the bands that ppl wanted me to... i liked the misfits :D...

but besides that... i had a really weird dream last nite again... this time it was sum 1 new that i made out with (not will and not zack but close to zack.. only with an h :D) hehe.. it was fun lol! and all u didnt read that... shh... lol!

You and your family.

Your full name: Dayna Janene Badders

Your Birthday: September 5, 1991

Your age: 13.. almost 14!

Your religion/beliefs: um... catholic

How many brothers and their names and ages: 1, Ryan, 16

How many sisters and their names and ages: 1, Sam, 15

Any half siblings or step siblings: Kim and Carey

Who you live with: Mom dad and ryan

Your parents first names: Rich and Donna

Are they divorced, married, seperated? married

What kind of house do you live in? one story ranch

Pets and their names:  1 hamster COCO!

Vehicles your family has:  2 cars that r ugly! ^_^

Do you have a good relationship with your family? not at all...

Describing your looks.

Hair color: uh... brown with blonde and red highlights

Hair length: to my shoudlers

Eye color: dark brown

long or short eye lashes? i have to use mascara ... what does that tell ya?

unibrow? ha hell no

Height: 5'6

Body type: uh... idk... not super skinny but not fat

Do you have horrible acne, mild acne, or a clear face? with cover up clear ^_^

Serious conversations? wish i had more...

Intellectual conversations? nah...

Rock? yea!

Pop? not so much..

Rap? ew...

Country? sux!

Disney? ? what about it?

Soda? not so much..

lots of sugar? nope not really

Electronics? yea..

School? fun 2 c friends but the rest sux ass

Politics? sux... there forced on me!

Looking at the stars? cute consept.. but grass is itchy...

Being alone? half the time..

Being in a big group of people? when im happy

Cartoons? eh..

90s TV shows? sum

90s music? not really

80s music? nooooo

Jazz and blues? EW!

Cajun and Zydeco? how do i know what that is?

Being in pictures? love takin em.. jus not being in em

Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen? nah...

The internet? YAY!

Favorites.

Food: Carrots and dip :)

Country: uh... dk

City: not washington

State: heh.. no

Color: Silver, Black, Pink, Lime Green, dark blue, and dark purple :D

Song/Songs: if i were to name them all u'd be here a while...

Band/Bands: My Chemical romance, Linkin Park, Breaking Benjamin, Slipknot, Good Charlotte, Crossfade, A perfect circle, Relient K, The Killers, Hawthorne Heights, Three Days Grace, 3 doors down, Blink 182, Gorillaz, Papa Roach, New Found Glory, Crazy Town, Simple Plan, Chronic Future, The Bravery, Fall Out Boy, Foo Fighters, Green Day, Lifehouse, Sum 41, Trapt, Yellowcard, System of a down... yea.. thats all of em...

Solo artist: Rob Thomas, Avril Lavigne...

Book: Sisterhood of the traveling pants, Dark Secrets, not many...

Sport: to play... volleyball.. to watch.. baseball (cuz i can understand it :D)

TV show: Gilmore Girls, Beautiful People, Wildfire, Friends, Sex and the City, Everyone Loves Raymond, 7th Heaven, Whos line is it ne way, smallvile, ...

Actor/Actress: dont have ne ...

Soda: orange ...

Alcoholic beverage: nasty drunks...

Movie: um... Never Been Kissed...

Quote/Phrase from songs or anywhere else: "remember when we first met, u told me this gets harder, well it did" ~ My chemical romance

Oxymoron: >.>

Thing to do with friends: talk or jus walk around the city....

Thing to do with family: hm... get money ^_^

Store: um.. rave

You and your friends.

Your best friend(s) is/are: omg.. so many... Mel, Chelsea, Devan, Sydney, Mariah, Alayna, Nicole, Megen, Kalie, Aly, Lauren, Brooke, Brooke (there 2 diff ppl), Will, Sam (theres 5 of em) , Nik, Zach, Alyssa, Shabina, Jozie, Vanessa, Rachel, ... and a lot more that i cant think of.. if i didnt name u srry!

Your closest friend: um... Shabina zach and nik Online.... and idk who at skool...

Hottest: Will or zach...

Most fun to talk to: shabina or nicole..

Most informative: dk... we had ppl at our table last yr that got all the news first...

Most fun to hang out with: idk...

Most reliable: Nik or Shabina...

Most trustworthy: um... there all pretty trustworthy...

Nicest: prolly sam t or shabina

Loudest: uh... Kalie...

Most exciting: idk.. there all real exciting jus cuz we laugh alot...

Funniest: Devan...

Weirdest: at times alayna...

Most demanding: again.. alayna...

Most annoying: >.> at times Taylor

Most overbearing: huh?

Most obsessive: sam j maybe? idk

Most jealous: idk... they dont really make it apparent that there jealous...

Most spoiled: none of us really...

Most selfish: Jay....

Smartest: Lindsey ... god is she smart...

Friend who has been there the most: nik or shabina or zach....

Longest lasting friend: Beth.. 10 yrs.. wow...

Friend online the most: Shabina or zach

Friend on the phone the most: Megen or Beth

Friend you see the most often: Josh and Kodi

Friend(s) you miss the most: sam t

Friend you wish you wouldn't have lost touch with: all of em i did lose touch with...

Biggest friend: tallest is nik....

Skinniest friend: rachel or sydney...

Friend you tease the most: idk... i do it to all of em!

Friend who teases you the most: they all do it to me too but its all in fun...

Friend you never hang with but still love to death: uh... zach nik and shabina cuz i never get to see em :(

Friend who never comes to your parties: sum how Josh and Kodi never end up coming...

Friend you fight with the most: alayna...

Love life.

Are you single? yup

If you're single do you like being single? NO!

If you are in a relationship do you two fight a lot?

Are you more of a date to date person than a steady relationship person? steady relationship person... well atleast thats what i want...

Does it matter too much what they look like? well.. kinda...

Are you only dating because you're lonely? uh.. hello.. not dating..

Have you ever been in love? i thought i was but idk...

Have you ever THOUGHT you were in love when you weren't? yup

Have you ever liked a best friend? heh.. yea...

What is your sexuality, anyway? straight...

Has a best friend ever liked you? dunno... never asked  :D

Have you ever just dated someone just because? um... no.. not really...

What was your longest relationship? heh.. 3 weeks :D

Shortest? 8 minutes HA!

Most horrible? uh.. the 3 wks....

Best? they were all pretty bad....

Are you still friends with any of your exes? nik and steven

Do you still like any of your exes? um.. not really... absouluty hate like 5 of em...

Have you ever been called cute and hated it? nah...

Have you ever been cheated on? 3 times...

Have you ever cheated on anyone? nope.. not like that...

Have you ever dated someone online? yup....

Have you ever liked/loved someone you never met? yup

Have you ever disliked someone because of their looks? no! im not shallow!

Have you ever dated someone ONLY for their looks? hell no.. i normally dont get the greatest lookin guyz ne way :D tho there r a few exceptions

Have you ever made out with a stranger? i kissed one.. never made out tho..

Had sex? nope...

Had/given oral sex? nah..

Had/given hand jobs, fingering, etc.? nope...

Have you ever even been kissed?  yup didnt like it tho...

How many people have you kissed? uh.. wait... 4 :D

If you're a virgin, have you considered giving it up? later...

If so, to who? couple diff ppl

Have you ever had a relationship based on physical activities? nooooo

If you're a girl what size bra do you wear? heh.. like im gonna tell u all... if ur really concerned jus ask me urself...

Have you ever had a long distance relationship? yup.. didnt last

Your emotions.

Are you emotionally stable? lets think about that... NO!

Have you ever hurt yourself physically? more than once...

Mentally? not willingly..

Have you ever attempted suicide? thought about it couple times...

Have you ever run away? didnt work out the way i planned...

Have you ever TRIED to run away? yup

Do you like sad songs? kinda...

Do you understand yourself at all? not really....

Does anyone you know understand you? if i dont how can they?

If so, who? no one!

Are you comfortable with your body? sorta...

Are you comfortable with any of your looks at all? yup!

If so, what? my hair :D

Do you deeply believe in anything such as God? sure

Are you confused about your faith? nopers...

Do you ever ask yourself deep questions? yea....

Do you have many secrets? yup...

How big ARE your secrets? pretty big....

Have you ever been physically abused? no coment...

Emotionally? yup

Sexually? again.. no comment..

Have you ever been to a therapist? guidence counciler...

Do you have a lot of friends? sure.. u could say that...

Can you ever remember being happy? yup

Do you like being happy? yea i luv it...

Do you like the rain? yea...

Enough drama, here's some random questions.

Have you ever been to Disneyworld? nope

Have you ever been out of the country? nope

Has your room ever been painted PINK? yea.. :D b4 it was...

Do you have a favorite mystical creature? um.. dk

Do you care if other people like you? i like it :D

Do you care what others think of you? >.> sadly yes...

Have you ever actually clicked on a pop up? yesss...

Have you ever been in a chat room? nope...

Do you believe in:

God? yuppers

Satan? again.. yes.. 

Ghosts? think so..

Witches? nope

Fairies? nope

Magic? dont work.. but ppl try..

a thing called love? isnt that a song?

Heaven? yup

Hell? yup.. welcome to my house!

Sex before marriage? maybe.... depends on who it is...

That the sun will rise each morning? nope...

That it will set each afternoon? nope...

evolution? nope..

dinosaurs? yeppers...

The theory of the big bang? idk what that is...

aliens? nah...

yourself? *pokes self* yep

Questions about surveys.

Do you like surveys? sure....

Do you like really long surveys? if im bored out of my mind...

Do you prefer asking questions or telling answers? idrc

Do you like to read other people's surveys? yup

Do you mostly do this when you're bored? DUH!

Have you ever made your own survey? nopers

Did you like this survey? sure y not...

Were the questions too personal? sum

Are you planning to post it anywhere? well what am i doin now?

Did any of these questions make you think about anything serious? um.. yea...

Do you hope no one else will read this survey? idrc

I forgot to ask this question earlier- are you a very jealous person? at times yea...

Do you wish this stupid thing was over? sure

Are you aware you only have one more question after this? now.. yea...

Am I pissing you off? not really....

YAY! i got it! here ya go ppls

1 - Computer : Mrs. Migyanko (first and second semester)

1 - Study Hall : Mrs. Basey :( THAT SUX! (third and fourth semester)

2 - S.S. : Mrs. Susko

3 - German : Frau... (JOZIE AND MEL!)

4 - IT/art/FCS/Health : l'atrelli, gasper, maund, blaney, (MEL AGAIN! YAY!)

5 - RR/Lunch - Mrs. Wray (Megen and Chelsea! yay!)

6 - Science : Mrs. Spadaro

7 - Band/ Gym - Turek/ Jones (Chelsea and ALOT of other ppl)

8 - Algebra - ZOMBEK!!!!! (KILL ZOMBEK!!!!) {CHELSEA!!!}

9 - English - Lukach (Mariah and Mel !)

PB - MR BLANEY! HELL YEA!

Band on M/W :D

~ happy but sad... how do that happen?

i kno.. i dissapeared 4 a lil while... im srry! i got grounded! heh.. believe me ill make up for it.. so im kinda tired.. and really happy! we went skateboarding i still have to choose a team... kodi or ryan... what a choice... zach and kodi (one team) are really nice to me... but then josh and ryan (the other team) are really good.... who do i choose ?! im so sad 4 everyone in the south that all this is goin on too... the gas prices suck!!!! 3 bucks for a gallon of flipin gas! and i missed everyone! :( but now.. im back! so no need to miss ppl ne more...

sept 5... a very special day.. can u figure it out? o.O

~ back and ready for .... well... most things :D

my dreams r so weird... but besides that .. i got like 95 messages y-day in hotmail... O.O thats alot of messages.... and then today got a couple more.. im so sleepy... and hungry :D this mornin is so slooooooooo..... sundays gonna rock! im prolly gonna get like... 100 dollars by the end of sunday... im gonna have 30 today... and prolly gonna get about 70 sunday so... :D im happy! i dunno what to buy tho.. got lots of makeup already.. shoes already... maybe ill buy clothes or sumthin... or CDS! :D ... i already got like... everyone i want tho.. maybe ill buy Sum 41 or sumthin... i dunno... or maybe a micro-dermabrasian thing.... (wow... thats a big word O.O) but there like 30 dollars >.> so idk...

~ O.O

*sigh* luv is so awesome... :) ... its weird... like... i kno i always say yea im in luv and stuff.. but like... 4 once everything feels real.. and even tho i have been hurt pretty badly b4 by past luvs.. this one i dont think will hurt me.... and that makes me so happy :)

~ in luv with him so much....

so happy rite now! i got my hair higlighted... bye bye blonde... hello brunette :D ha i luv it! i look so pretty :D well.. prettier... ha! it looks so awesome! *sigh* so much good happenin this weekend its gonna rock!

~ no more blondie!

about everythin i think of... is about love lol... as always.. dads home.. im here with out ryan.. and im annoyed ! lol... but im talkin to my sweetie...  hes like.. such a sweet person and supports me in most ne thing.. i luv him so much.... thats like.. all i can talk about is him :)

~ one grl in deep deep love...

i'll admit it.. i broke my computer >.> i didnt mean to i swear!  but besides that it was the first day of skool and i went to the wrong english class :D oops! :( i felt really stupid... o well.. but im glad to be back! i missed u ppl! i went shoppin today too :D ... got earrings, necklace, and 2 cds... fall out boy and 3 doors down :D so happy bout that.. and still have 35 bucks left :D

so yea i had a kool b-day on monday.. (for those of you who didnt remember)

~ happy 2 b back

so happy i got the cds i did... i luv 3 doors down... and fall out boy... tho i didnt get to listen to fall out boy yet b/c ryan took it... the dudes voice sounds kinda weird.. but the lyrics r kool...

~ sum 1s babi gurl

>.> i jus totally made myself mad... never done that b4... >.> MY GOD IS IT SO HARD TO HOLD ON TO SUMTHING GOOD! i really need to stop questionin my judgement... i kno what feels rite to me! but at the same time both of my sides are telling me different things! who do i listen to?! idk... but i kno i love him so much and i need to stop telling myself that i mite not and he jus mite b smooth with words... cuz i do... I DO SO MUCH! i luv him so much! its not even measurable how much i luv him.... so y am i questoinin that? ... my brain need to shut the hell up!

~ his babi gurl ... i luv u so much...

i was so stupid to even think i didnt luv him... cuz i luv him to death.... so baby if ur reading this its tru... and im srry if i made u confused last nite baby.... i really am... and god only knows how much i messed with my mind last nite to confuse myself.. but baby.. i do luv u so much... and david really needs to back off.... >.> hes not the one i was thinking that i liked.. god no hes a dirtball... but he was jus staring at me and everytime hed walk by hed smile at me of touch my arm and its like... GET AWAY FROM ME! :( hes such a perv! but besides that today was pretty good.. no hw! yes! and as always i decorated my planner again :D im such an artist ;) lol

~ hopefully he'll fogive me

sumthing a lil out of the ordinary... black roses... hmm... weird aint it.. idk if itll stay long.. ill start scaring myself... heh... well.... i listened to fall out boy like literally 8 times today so far... heh.. i like it alot... skool makes me so tired.... i so dont know y steven called me today.. ? ... and hes goin out with sassy... yay! ... thats kool... but weird at the same time cuz he makes stuff so awkward... but hey.. what can ya do... im starting to think more and more that everyones rite... maybe i am depressed... maybe not.. maybe yes.. idk ...

~ his babi gurl still.. luv u so much

well... today nicole told me that her and jay r goin to the movies on sunday and she wanted to see if i could cum and she invited like half the ppl in the skool... whoa man... well.. so far theres me (maybe) , nicole, jay, kodi (maybe) , courtney, kyra, and maybe kalie... so yea... theres gonna b a few more ppl prolly to... so yea.. pretty cool... Ms. luckach yells like.. wayyy to much...... :D but too bad... but besides that  not much has been goin on at skool...

~ luv u baby

:( i very mad at babys dad rite now.. he made him leave me tonite when i was feelin really romanticy ... :( thats so mean! (at least to me .... prolly him too) but besides that half the time my dad makes me get off so its like there working together.. wtf is up with that?! but i do luv u baby...

but besides that josh and kodi r over >.> there driving me nuts... (more than normal that is...) and i finally found a header pic.. yay!

~ his babi gurl who loves him more than ne thing

time 4 a new poem! lucky u guyz get to read it!

I kno sumtimes how i feel isnt clear

but its always the same i swear

Every where i go without u

I wish that ud be there

I luv u more than life itself

thats not overly dramatic

ur love keeps me going

Like ur the drug and im the addict

idk y we have this connection

all i kno is that its great

maybe its a coincidence

or maybe its just fate

the lil things i leave u

are jus a token that i care

there jus lil things to remind u

that i'll always be there

of course u all kno thats about sweetie...

i luv u so much baby

omg! i checked my mail and i got the sweetest responce from baby ... its makin me get all teary eyed... awww.... hes so sweet! i luv him so much... but besides all the lovey stuff (which im really happy about if u couldnt tell) not much has been goin on...

~ i luv u baby

holy crap ppl! im not crazy.. i jus get pissed easy :D i get to fight with perry later too! yay! sounds like fun to me :D but besides that.. i wonder where baby went that made him go away for like 20 minutes already!!!

~ his babi gurl thats gonna kick ass

my xanga site!  www.xanga.com/xhottblondeskatergrlx  its pretty cool.. i gotta keep up with it unlike i did with my myspace... i still check it but i jus dont update... idk.. everything rite now in my life is confusing me...

~ very confused and .. yup.. confused

im goin to the movies at 4 with nicole, jay, travis, umm.... kalie, and courtney... yup.. we're goin to see the dukes of hazard (guyz choice not ours obviously) ... yea ... so im getting all prettied up.. pink haulter.... jeans.. white heeled sandals... umm.... pink nails :D ... pink star earings... silver braclet... purple eyeshadow with silver highlighter... clear lipgloss... black eyeliner and mascara.. so yea.. i look pretty :D .. atleast i think so... for once im actually happy with the way i look..... and now i have to sit here 4 about 2 and a half hours and be bored out of my mind and prolly jus lose my voice more singin :D .. i luv singing.. its so fun.... lol... but yea... not much has been goin on.. dads all pariniod about me going to the movies with the ppl and im like.. wth??! so yea.. im still pretty confused about why baby was acting weird last nite... or maybe it was just me... who knows.... but i wanna say ty to nik for helping me a lil last nite.. ty so much nik! .. yea.. hes always tellin me its not my fault... but this time idk if it was... so yea... not much besides that...

~ so pretty ;)

the movies was pretty good... it made me tired tho... so not much has been goin on.... rite now jus talking to baby... still kinda confused... tho i always am.. :D ... but besides that... next time i wanna go to the movies i kno im taking nicole with me... that way i kno ill b allowed and she has a date :D (jay) lol... so now i jus gotta find a date and we'll be set lol...

~ falling asleep from bordom

grr... the one time i really need a hug.. baby and nik arent on.. wth is up with that?! o well... its not there fault.. im like.. so sick to my stomach.. now every time i eat.. i get sick.. :( its just gay like that... o well.. lifes jus gonna b like this at times...

~ one person that feels horrible...

whered perry go? he dissapeared! my god! and the funny thing (well its not funny its weird) is that it happened as soon as we got done "arguing"... i wasnt even really mad! god! :( made me sad.. sam and rachel think im depressed (dumb asses ... shhh.. u didnt read that) i dont really think there dumb its jus i think its dumb they think im depressed.. its like.. wtf man?

~ his babi gurl.. i luv u so much...

got lots of thinking in... umm... talking to nik... wrote a poem... (too bad.. ur not gonna read it)... R&R i got my seat changed... now i sit by no one interestin.. no more talking to jay :(  Lunch i was a bitch to jay ne way.. oops... ( i was in a shitty mood) .. science i punched billy in the stomach cuz he was annoying me ( i didnt get caught .. whoo) ... talked to angel in gym... um... got colbys # (idk y...?).. and yea.. that was pretty much my day.... besides the fact that zack hildebrand came off the bus with me and ryan and was like "are u trying to be punk?" to me.. and i asked him if he was tryin to make me mad and if so it was working.. then he jus shut up... imagine that.. he didnt continue to argue with me for once.... so yea.. my poem/drawing folders getting pretty thick now.. i need to get a bigger one... i showed mike my pix and when he saw one of a gun he was like... wth is that? im like.. uh.. nothin.. god is he stupid... >.>

~ wow is that buzy

yay! me and baby made up! no more bitchy me! yayyyy!

well.. seems like im not the only one having love dreams.. *cough cough* nik! lol .. but besides that my dream was awesome last nite... (heh.. i kept it to myself till now tho.. :D but i was thinkin of it all day....)

ok well.. i was at skool... and i was coming out frum the band/music area.. and i was walking with alex and spenser... i see zach standin up where the steps lead up to the green or tan pod... (how he got there idk.. he wouldnt even be at the middle skool!) .. so i go up to him and im like.. hey and i give him a hug... and hes like where r u goin? and im like to algebra (hey! thats actually where i would b goin lol!) so he walks with me over to there and said sumthin really random ( thats y i 4get) and then he cums in the class with me and im like ooook... but then he sits next to me (where theres normally an empty seat) ... so the whole time we're in there we're passin notes... (me and kyra.. and me and zach) so kyras wondering if me and zach r goin out and zachs tellin me askin me sumthin about cumin over tonite... after that the day goes on and yadda yadda yadda ... (i dont see zach so thats y im leavin that part out) but im tellin everyone that hes here and stuff and they're like awesome ... so then zach cums home with me and ryan on the bus ... and he cums in and mom and dad are like.. y did u bring ur b/f home w/o asking.. and im like... uh.. idk... so yea... then me and him go to my room and hes sittin in my chair and hes like well do u wanna do sumthin? and im like what cha thinkin? and hes like sumthin other than sitting on our asses and so we go on the trampoline and sum how i fall on him and yea.. it was so cute :) i luv having dreams like that :D specially with ppl like zach :D

so yea.. today was pretty boring... um... yea :) I.T i used the jigsaw with out cuttin off ne of my fingers ! yay me! and im the only one who had enough guts to do it! LOL! yea it was pretty cool actually.... :D

NO HOME WORK AGAIN! YAY!

o and i got the system of a down "toxicity" cd from julia and alex is bringin me the all american rejects and good charlotte and kalie mite be bringin me nickelback, switchfoot, and v-sumthing-bridge.. lol so yea.. more cds for me yay!

Next week at skools the Hurricane Katrina relief fund ... much awesomeness gonna b goin down.. picnic on campus, lollipops, Movie in PB, Raffles, and Hat Day! now if only i could find a hat.. hmm... lol

Much love to you all

~ his babi gurl

would sum 1 really be so mad that theyd get up and leave the table jus cuz i said fuck? my god... >.> thats pothetic... and cum to think of it.... u said it to! ur a fucking hipocrit! (IDC IF ITS SPELLED RITE OR NOT!) all the football players are ass holes! they made jake so pissed today.. there tellin everyone hes gay and hes not! or else he wouldnt always be tellin me... that grls ass is hot or yadda yadda yadda... >.> :-P u all suck! but yea.. besides that .. i actually passed my I.T test! whoot! i think i failed my science one tho... O.o .. that'll suck... i have homework :( stupid S.S. Class... y must u be so dumb?  but yea... Nicole jay and megen are all like "u cuss too much so u cant sit with us" and im like "w/e" so yea... they left and i didnt HAHA BITCHES! (not nicole.. she said she didnt really care...) ... and whats with ppl sayin my drawings are creepy? i mean like... wow... ppl holding hands... so very creepy... :rolls eyes: or was rachel talking about the gun one... yea... that ones not creepy either.. so idk wtf there talking bout... but yea...

Love you all!

(the special one most :) )

hehe..

~ me

yup.... lol im jus waiting 4 zach to get back frum practicin... i mite b here a while :D ... plans for the weekend.... uh... i got all my work done (so far) today.. so tomorrow im pretty free to jus chill... ( i do that wayyy too much...)... sundays my aunts b-day so we're goin over her house... and yea... pretty boring ... :/ ... so very exhausted frum this week.... its been soooooooooo freakin long...... and yet it dont feel like it should b over yet... ? idk.. im jus weird like that..

~ bored and sleepy...

sum guy up the street was revving (i think thats how its spelled) his hotrod this mornin... AT 8 FREAKIN 30!! god thats so early! and he didnt stop until like.... 10 last nite! wtf?! ppl actually sleep ya kno!!! he woke up my dad... (bad move) and my dad went out on the porch and screamed really loud "WHY DONT U SHOVE THAT DAMN CAR UP UR ASS!!!" .. haha it was funny.... plus... ryan wanted to walk up there and kick his ass... my dad wanted to call the cops so yea... hes gonna get his ass kicked one way or another :D... but besides that... not much has been goin on.. i cleaned the house already this mornin all i gotta do is finish the laundry (only 4 loads to go!) run the sweeper and fold the couch blanket... then im free to chill .. :) .. its always fun to chill.. but its better if ya have sumthin to do while ur chilling!!! maybe ill make more pillows ;) i already have like.. 5 that i made... :D.. but more couldnt hurt... so yea.. now all i gotta do is find all my lil material squares... >.> ... now where did i put them...

off to go hunt for stuff...

~his babi gurl (i luv u :) )

mom went to amish country w/ ginnie y-day... they make really good peanut butter! lol .. but there not creepy accordin to mom.. jus got back from beths house... they finally moved into the downstairs yay! goin to aunt sues soon... prolly around one ;) but the ppl at foodland were lookin at me like i was crazy b/c i was blastin my music in the car... :D too bad... yup... now i got the green day cd too off of dan yay!

~ one pretty me

i dont even see y we went to aunt sues party.. all we did was sit on our asses and watch the football game... (everyone but me that is) all i did was draw a pic and run on the tredmill and gazell... so yea... i finally kno how to thread a sewing machine (dumb ass me forgot how.. ) lol... but yea.... i dont wanna go to skool tomorrow.. idk y.. maybe jus cuz im sick of it already.. so much drama.. and normally i dont mind it but it gets annoying after a while.... >.> so yea.. im tired and talkin to zach so yea.... not half bad... jus the tired part is bad..

~ his babi gurl

god do i hate dreaming.. it makes me really mad when i have dreams that make me all confused... i had a dream i was talking to zach and he said "this isnt working for me lets just be friends" and i woke up all like... oh no is this gonna happen? and then i got on jus now and i had an email and as always i paniced (is that spelled rite?) so yea... it wasnt what i thuoght it was.. really cute actually :D so yea.. today was kinda a bad day.. but good news! i got more cds! i got... uh.... evanessence (ha i kno thats not ne where near spelled rite.. bare with me ppl), kelly clarkson, and avril lavigne.. she gave me south park too.. i jus dont want it :D

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

allll of this is tru..... ha... and i am afraid of marriage! lol... jus cuz im afraid of ppl actually knowing what i can be like sumtimes lol...

~ his babi gurl... (im srry if this makes ya think im crazy... tho i am.... its not stupid i swear!)

for once i have extra time to check my mail in the mornin.. yay! so yea... yesterday was kinda sucky (till i got home that is) then i got sick... nasty >.> ... i told my mom whats been happenin with my stomach.. (like every time i eat or drink i feel like i need to like.. puke) and its not voluntary either... its so gay.. and even when im hungry i still feel like that and im afraid to eat and then i get all light headed.... it needs to go away.. cuz its startin to get pretty annoyin...

so besides that i talked to zach again.. :) always makes me happy... im so sick of making themes im jus using premade ones... (whoa... who wouldve guessed this would ever happen?!) so yea.. ill ttyl

~ his babi gurl :D

im in an awesome mood! lol i jus got the slipknot cd off of zack (he dont kno tho.... its a long story... but i swear on my life that i didnt steal it) but the point is i have it :D and tomorrow im getting the new Disturbed cd... AFI... and All American Rejects... all off Julia! hahaha! yay! that'll make what?... uh... 22? i think... :D so yea... its awesome... today actually wasnt bad... JACOB LIKE MARIAH! HAHAHA! she said no tho.... (i didnt tell him that tho :D i told him she said "she'd think about it") ;) i feel bad i didnt tell him the truth but she dont like him! lol i feel so bad! lol... but o well.. haha.... so yea... (mel if ur readin this dont tell him! PLZ!!!!).... so yea.... :D

~ luv u baby :)

just maybe today was one of the most mistake filled days of my life...

just maybe i shouldnt hook jacob and mariah up

just maybe i should let things go

just maybe i am thinking a lil too much rite now

just maybe i am partially "typical"

just maybe theres no a real definition to define me by

just maybe i dont get what im doin wrong

just maybe i dont feel like ne one knows how i feel rite now

just maybe my parents dont wanna get me

just maybe they dont know me...

not a poem... all jus thoughts

i am so confused rite now... i really need sum 1 to lean on ... i dont really get ne thing rite now... >.> i dont exactly feel like myself.. normally i do think of stuff differently... and maybe that makes me different.. but if u look at it everyone has a diff oppinion about everything and everyone has a different way of seeing things... like in my case most ppl would say im lucky... but in my oppinion im not really... my parents and brother both drive me nuts... and i have a guy i love so far away.. and my parents dont wanna understand ne thing about me... not what i want in life... and not what i wanna achive .. they frown upon everythin i do.... like talking to ppl i dont kno in person... wanting to be a cosmetologist.... getting bad grades at times... crying (if u feel like crying u should b able to.. not get grounded for it) ... punching walls... screaming... singing (ok.. im not that great.. but u dont have to say behind my back.. "i wish i could jus get rid of her thought of becoming a singer or being in a band period)... if i wanna live my life dont jus frown at everythin i do and say... actually support me for once... even tho half the time i think i hate how u act towards me.. i still want u to be happy with what i do.... is it so hard to be happy with both ur kids?

about skool... i get to make a table... *rolls eyes*... whoo fucking hoo... destiny cox and carlie s. got in a fight... again.. whoo fucking hoo... in gym we played football... preps vs. preps and no interation in between... does there seem to be a pattern here? or is it just me?

home life.. (more than already written above).... writing a book... on the 1st chapter... pretty good so far :) (wow a smile!) so yea.... pretty bad day.. hope i get to talk to zach later.. or nik.. (nik! i havent talked to u in like a 2 wks! email me!)....  besides that... uh... nope... thats about it.... o wait.. and mike on the bus is mad at me cuz he called me ugly and i ripped sum skin on his arm >.> ... never call me ugly! im not! :(

~one soul ripped in two

all i wanna do is live day by day be who i believe is me live for all my morals and life for what i love .... if thats sounds so wrong ... then y bother even tryint to convince u its not...

its so awesome when the guy ur totally in love with tells u that he thought of u today... it made me really happy.... :) i luv when he does sweet lil things like that.. makes me feel special... (theres that word mom hates.... ) so yea... :) it was really sweet what he said it was about 2 :) (ok ok ... it was about skool.. but hey.. he made it sound really good to me ;) ) ... so yea.. that made my mood alot better... and he let me vent out what was happenin to me to him too... which i give him bonus points 4... (cuz we all kno it sux when i complain.... ) and baby if ur reading this i luv u so much :)

~ his babi gurl... (god do i love writing that :))

so .... today... 2 concerts... 1 fight.... 20 hugs... and a million thoughts... no details.. just life... o and one bitch ... :D... i am so ready to talk to zach.... really in the mood to talk to him... so yea... thats today

so... questions everyone wants to kno the answers to .. answered by urs truely :D

1) would u take a bullet for ne one?

honestly.. some ppl yes... other ppl... id shove into it... others id push out of the way.... so yea.. basically i would :D

2)  Do two rongs dont make a right?

no but 3 lefts do :D

3) Is the glass half full or half empty?

neither... its a lil off the half way! lol

4) The age old question.. what came first? the chicken or the egg?

well... did a mom or the kid come first????

5) how did ppl find out cows give milk?

sum pervert was doin sumthing.... >.>

6) is there a definition of love?

yea... l.o.v.e :D

~ *sigh* what a mind i have rite?

yup... last nite i worked on my book.. i have like 6 or 7 pgs... (and thats only the 1st chapter)... im gonna have to find a way to take the printer to my room and print it out... i got a 10 dollar lipgloss from victoria's secret... its called french kiss... very pretty.. and the good thing is i didnt have to pay for it :D (my mom did tho ) so yup me likey! tanner's on myspace now! yay! hes cool... :D so yea.. thats about it ...

~ me!

ok... i only did half my work already ...  and i really dont feel like finishing the rest of it.. i already did my room and the dishes .... so far... next... i have to do ... bout 4 loads of laundry... work out... the living room, finish the kitchen, the basement, and the bathroom... thats still a lil more than half my work.. >.> and dad says im lazy.... o plus groceries... >.>

dads home g2g

1. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? a biography about sum grl i really dont care about.. all i kno is she wrote the book little women

2. WHAT TIME IS IT? umm... like 6 sumthin

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE MAT? greyness

4. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? lets see... a board game... i really am not that desperate...

5. YOUR FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? Seventeen

6. BABIES? wayyyy later in life.. like when im 30

7. FAVOURITE SOUND? some one whispering i love you in your ear and meaning it

8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? Heartbreak or breaking a bone...

9. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING? i dont wanna wake up right now...

10. FUTURE CHILDS NAME? Jackie or Naomi

11. FAVOURITE COLOUR? Dark Blue or Dark Purple

12. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE? happiness

13. FAVOURITE FOOD? mints!

14. WHAT INSTREMENT WOULD YOU PLAY? guitar!!!

15. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? i dont drive!

16. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? noppers...

17. STORMS - cool or scary? uh... weird...

18. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? no cars for me yet

19. WHO IS THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK WITH? My grandma

20. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? none..

21. WHAT'S IN THE BOOT OF YOUR CAR? wheres the car?

22. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI? mhm

23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Cosmetologist baby!

24. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? mhm!

25. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? neither...its off the mark!!!

26. FAVOURITE MOVIE? Cruel Intensions

27. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? yup 

28. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? umm... prolly lots of papers and magaizines .. but im not sure lol

29. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE NUMBER? 13!

30. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH? Baseball... its the only thing i understand lol

31. SAY ONE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS... to you person... hi!

32. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE, WHERE WOULD IT BE? on a big patch of land with a river in the back yard

33. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? oh oh! my faded blue jeans that are really baggy and are really wide around the bottom and there awesome!

34. BEACH, MOUNTAINS or CITY? beach!

35. TECHNOLOGY or ART? technology

36. COMEDY or HORROR? horror

37. FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? hair or face

38. FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY? full moon winter nights

39. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? Fall Out Boy "under the cork tree"

40. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? Neck

41. WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU. STRONG IN MIND or STRONG IN BODY?

well.. we all no im not strong in my ... uh... mind :D 

42. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? 6:30

43. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? fighting with the one i love

44. WHAT DO YOU PREFER, A SPORTS CAR or 4x4? wood or car... i choose wood for me

45. DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE AFTERLIFE? yea...

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? winter!!!

47. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? i can have super powers?

48. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? i dont got one.. but i want a cross with a rose on my shoulderblade

49. CAN YOU JUGGLE? ha! like im that coordinated

50. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY? my b-day or christmas

51. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI or HAMBURGER? hamburger

52. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON? dont got one

53. FAVOURITE MEAL? breakfast

54. IF YOU COULD TAKE A VACATION ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD IT BE? alabama... (hi zach!)

55. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? coco my hamster! hes so adorable!

sooo... this weekend.. work, cleanin, working out and talking online.... more specificly... running 3 miles while eveyone else is skateboarding.... mhm... yup... talkin to zach a lil... cleaning the whole freakin house... making spagetti.... and grocery shoppin... whoo freaking hoo.... everything sucked cept talking to zach.. that never does... :D but yea.. i actually like this premade theme :D its kool... yup... thats about it..o and im writing a book.. im on the 3rd chapter and my 15th or 16th pg i think... :D

~ so wore out....

so yea.. been gettin weird dreams.. most of them.. ive been killed.. as usual... im starting to think sum 1 wants me dead >.> .... whoever it is can burn in hell cuz i aint goin nowhere for now :D... but... theres a catch... i had a good dream to that i totally loved to death and i cant get out of my mind! it was like the perfect vision of what i REALLY want and wish could happen... ok.. so ... i was cumin out of music and walkin up the ramp with billy ... and i saw zach standin there in the middle of the hallway jus lookin around.. and at first i jus flipped out and said to billy "OMFG! ITS ZACH!!!!" and billy was like "huh? i thought he lived in alabama?" and i jus ignored him (sounds like me huh?) and ran up to zach while he was turned around and poked his shoulder... when he turned around he jus looked at me and gave me a really big hug and he said sumthin i couldnt understand and i was like "what?" and he whispered in my ear "i love you so much" and i was like awwwww... and then i had to go to zombek's (white w/e) class and he came with me and said bye and that hed see me later and the day went on yadda yadda yadda as normal and i was looking for zach everywhere ... then i get on the bus and hes in the 1st seat and i sat with him and everyones like "who the hell is that" so zach says who he is and there like "you'd actually go out with dayna????" and i was like "hey!" and zach got pissed off... i guess cuz he knows how i am about my looks.. and goes back there and punch's luke (kalies brother) rite in the face! i was like "u kno u didnt have to do that" hes like "i kno but i dont like when ppl r mean to my baby" and i was like "awwww.." and then we kissed and stuff and he got off at my house... (here's where all the trouble begins) and so my moms not home yet and we come in (ryans fine with it btw) and so we hang out and stuff and are on the couch watichin tv all cuddly and stuff and all the sudden mom comes in and flips out and stuff and so does my dad and yea... not good.. but then zach says he'll leave and i was like "NO!!!" i really didnt want him to!! and he gives me a hug and kiss and goes to walk out the door and whispers in my ear "dont worry baby, I'll see you tomorrow"

IT WAS SUCH AN AWESOME DREAM !!!!!!!!!! I LOVED THE LIVING HELL OUT OF IT!!!!

so yea.. good day!

~ his babi gurl always <3

im in such a good mood i cant stop saying srry 4 everything and huggin ppl! lol im in such a good mood!!!! i got such a huge smile on my face and basically nothin can ruin my mood rite now!!! and im trying so hard not to smile cuz i dont wanna make dad suspisious... lol too bad.. im gonna smile till my face hurts... ive actually done that b4... lol!!! but everytime im happy i do sumthin stupid... like say sumthin stupid or fall and break sumthing stupid.. lol o well.. i jus laugh it off... and i didnt eat ne thing to make me hyper either... unless ppl put stuff in my food... HA ! knowin my friends they prolly did... and all i have to say to that is THANK YOU!!!!! hahaha.. knowin my luck it was prolly them.. HA!!! god im freakin hyper.. lol.. but ne way... today... ah who cares about today.. all i care about rite now is im happy and im goin to show it to u!!!

*hugs* to all!!!

~ wheeee.. happy!!!

holy shiznit... zach OD'd on his ADD pills.. omg i thought when i read that i was gonna flip out and cry... i was so freakin scared.. but luckily hes online *phew* spadaro gave us extra hw.. so screw u bitch! i hope u die!!! not only for that.. she said that billy was flirtin with me!!! we're cuzins!!! ur such a fucking dumb ass!!!! and all u that made zach feel like he wanted to die.. im gonna find out who u are... im gonna shoot u in the stomach, slit your wrists, then ill leave u there to die you bastards... I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS BITCHES!! no one messes with ne of my friends... no matter how good of friends i am with u.. dont mess with my friends...

~ ur dead...

ok.. on myspace... all my subscriptions were unsubscribed... and i didnt do it and no one knows my password... so who do i have left to suspect.... ? parents? maybe.. brother? not a chance... so ???? *points gun to head and shoots* oops.. heh i missed :D...  but ne way.. im stumped.... >.>

hint me if u have ne clues

ok... #1... myspace is so screwed up rite now... atleast mine is... #2 i found pics that I DIDNT SAVE!!! in my folder... and guess who it was? bingo! my dad.... >.>.. will u get the hell out of my shit?... god... i kno this is like the 2nd time i blogged in like 10 min... but im gettin so frustrated... >.> why only bother me? huh? grr.. nvm u idiot!

~ :-P screw u

ok.. today... horrible... i woke up and i was late getting my hair washed so i was being rushed out of everywhere... i barely got done in time... i had nite mares all nite... and i got a total of about 4 hours of sleep... >.> and im not exagerating.. i was up really late thinking... and then i woke up to the storm... :( sux... to much shit to think about.. i had a nitemare that zach didnt like me at all ne more and that he told me he like sum 1 else... then i had another dream i was being killed... this time it was by dad.... (its not a nitemare.. its his greatest wish)... i learned i was partially an accident... pleasent aint it? ... ryan is freaking me out.. and i gotta go clean my room... damn this whole freakin mess... >.> i hope it dies...

~ how cant u see this?

title is random but damn u better do it.... lol.. ne ways.. im prolly gonna b goin over alex's house tonite... (she lives rite up the street so now i have sum where to go when im bored) yay!.... jake was checkin out mariahs ass today lol i feel so bad 4 her.. hes like head over heels for her... and he wont even bother to notice ne one else i point out to him... lol ... so sad really... he's as bad as me!!!! lol i didnt know guyz could b that badly in luv with ppl.. well.. actually i started to get a hint when tanner kept puttin luv things up.. tho im stil stumped on who it is.. lol... i wonder if i should ask.. hmm..... hes cool tho... so besides that im gonna b changin my theme soon.. i want black with blue letterin.. thats all i kno so far...idk what else to put.... maybe water? nah.... maybe the night sky... YEA!!!!

whoo i learned how to do sumthing

♥ heh cute aint it

☻  A SMILEY!!!!

☺ another smiley!!!!

♦ a cross!!! i think.. or is that a diamond?

♣ a club!!!

♠ or is that the club??

• a dot... amazing....

◘ a box... amazing...

○ a circle ???

the got boring at the end but the heart rocks...!!!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

everyone seems to kno the best way to set me off.... i was supposed to be going over alex's house.. and i spent an hour curlin my hair and got all pretty ... and then she cancels on me last minute.. i was gonna c if we could go up to the park and meet kodi up there but he canceled on me too... ryan went up to jays house to fix the xbox.... then i get on here mad and i think im making zach mad... and i think im confusing myself and making everything more complicated than it is and dad invited beth over even tho i told him i didnt want to do nethin tonite ... and now im all confused on whether to cry or punch sumthing or prick my finger or punch somethin (seems popular at the moment) and im all confused about what zachs saying cuz it dont make ne sense to me and i dont want to do ne thin b/c tomorrow i wanted to sleep till noon and then lay in bed and be pissed off the rest of the day.... and i finally am starting to make sense of stuff a lil and im sitting here feelin like a total clingy bitch that dont give a damn about ne thing but feeling wanted.... >.> and god im sad to say thats starting to be my look on what i am.. a sad lil clingy bitch ... and god dammit do i wanna change that....... blek... no more...

~ u dont wanna piss me off rite now cuz i swear to god if i kno who u r i will personally kick ur ass....

last nite i had 24 friends.. now i have 22... nik deleted his accounts :( why did u do that u idiot!!! im surprised he didnt delete his myspace... im so flippin cold rite now... my stomache hurt like hell about an hour ago.... im actually gonna try to finish my page today.... >.> (my myspace) and zach aint here :( he went over brandon's house.. but beth came over last nite and we had fun.. dad didnt wake up till 11... (and he said im lazy >.> i never sleep past like 10) so yea.. im kinda bored.. im really tired to... i thought i was gonna fall asleep while beth was here... i actually started to play the sims today... whoo... my house is pimpin... looks nice and cozy... (least the living room cuz thats all i got done)... and now my internets being gay.. and slow!!!! :( i hate slow...

♥ in love with him.... :)

-_- zzzZ.. sleepy.. zachs not on :( shabina is.. yay! when dad comes home ill prolly be sleeping....  and he'll wake me up jus to yell at me b/c i didnt do ne laundry cuz we're out of detergent... moms not going to be home till 11 and i wanna stay up to talk to her but im about to pass out... well.. thats bout it...

~ ....

last nite i got a horrible headache.. i went to bed around 730... woke up around 715... and i was still tired.. i jus bought a pimpin pair of jeans.. :D  now off to go do sumthing so i can get on later...

~ still in love with him ♥

i jus saw this wallpaper zach made it was awesome!!!!... i think i know the reason why im having a headache and been feelin sick... i have my wisdom teeth cumin in and it hurts like hell.... >.> but besides that im in a pretty good mood :D... im talkin to zach my headaches starting to ease itself... and im talking to zach :D lol i love talkin to him... lol (i wonder y ;)) the thing that im kinda mad about tho is that tanners being an idiot and not answering my questions and :-P so screw him... i jus realized i hate watchin football... i love playin it but i dont understand it watching it LOL! its gay like that so yea... today was alot better than yesterday!!!

~ ♥ i love them lil hearts...

well... im home.. im sick... and i almost did figure out how to get on here.. mom told me not to but i did ne way b/c i wanted to :) so nice! lol

i dont feel like being here ... i feel horrible... my stomach hurts and it feels like my heads gonna blow up!!! :( i hate bein sick........

~ :( ur so mean u damn amune system.. u suck!

i was bored half to death today.. tomorrow im hoping to be all the way better... which means i am goin to skool.. id rather b bored at home tho... god i hate skool.... rite now im having my "daily chat time"... we're gettin dsl... yay! but i still cant get the net on my computer even if i pay for it which is so gay.... and really really confusing.... >.> i hate when ppl make me sad like that... i was watchin thats 70s show like... an hour ago.. and god do i hope im not as moody as some of the ppl on there.. if i am then shoot me... (not literally of course.. cuz damn i dont wanna get shot) lol.. i was jus thinkin about tryin to b more confident.. and i think im gonna try :D yay!

~ dear god that wont last long lol ♥

i feel like such a freakin idiot!!! i hammered my hand in I.T.!!!! :( it hurt like hell!!!! and now its all swelled up and bruised and looks like shit!!! :( gay ass hammers.... im going to freakin disinvent them.... >.> besides that i drew a really good pic on my science folder (im doin this gay density thing rite now.. but im cheating and using a calculator :D shhhhhhh) so yea.. really pretty.. ill show it to yall tomorrow if ur in my science class... *pauses* whoa... i jus said yall.... O.O lol but besides that im really tired and im pissed at jacob b/c he started cutting himself!!! :( what a loser im so pissed!!!! ur such a fuckin idiot i hate u! ur doin that all over a bunch of grls saying no to u and there are alot that u turn down .. how do u think they felt!!! (heh... hes not reading this so y am i botherin riting it?) i smacked him like 50 times for it and bitched at him... well.... yup.. thats my day!!

~ ♥ biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hearts!!!!

its making me really confused to be honest... its like a whisper in the dark... u think its real.. but ur not absoulutly sure that it was...  its like... looking in the mirror and seeing something totally different.... its just not who i am... and everyone knows what im like... so why dont i look like who i am? why is it that i have everything in my life jumbled up in my heart... and have no way of letting it out? why is it that im embarresed of something im actually proud of?.. its all screwed up in my head like that... im so freakin proud of writing everything i do.. and as soon as someone says that they dont like it .. i question it in my head... whats wrong with it? why dont they like it? why do i care? everything is just so confusing and i dont really like that i feel like everything i do sux cuz i dont think that... and i actually start to get happy.. then you tell me u dont even think it was worth going thru jus to get shit?! u dont even kno how freaking hard that i tried jus to get that... im so happy that some one finally actually likes me .. .and u tell me that hes shit?! u dont even fucking know him!! so how could u say ne thing? you cant! exactly! so y did u bother? u kno how i get when u say things like that.... and u did it ne way?.... then ppl come in dressed like sluts with there fucking boobs hanging out of the shirts and u think its hott? well honestly.. ur a dick... and a fucking perv cuz u dont care about ne thing cept for getting some and i dont even know why the hell i bother letting u in my life... its a waste of time...

god... u disgust me kodi.... fucking disgust me.......

(and i swear to god.. ne of u tell him i wrote this.. ill fucking kick ur ass....)

~ ♥ i love you zach...

its tru.. im a softy for flowers... they are so pretty and smell so good (most of the time) and they're like a little miracle when they bloom.... ok... wayyyyyyy to cheesy i kno... but i luv em! so pretty.....

~ whoa.. so pretty :D

rachel i swear to god u say ne thing else about me and ill kick ur slutty lil ass... u dont go up to ppl and jus randomly say im not a virgin.. specially since its not tru... and then u say that u dont kno who would be that desperate to sleep with me?! why the hell do u think u cant get a b/f??? cuz ur a fucking slutty bitch... fuck u... and u too jami... im not dirty.. i take a shower every fucking day... check for all i care i dont give a shit... and what did i do to em? nothin.. absolutly nothing... cept to rachel yesterday i cuz i told her she looked like a slut.. sam told her that too cuz it was tru.. her frickin boobs were half out of her shirt! jesus.... i wish she would jus shut her freakin mouth cuz she dont kno what the hell shes talking about...

seriously... test me... ppl like me better than u... thats a fact... everyone knows ur a lil annoying prick that dont know how to shut her damn mouth.... so go ahead... keep runnin ur mouth... me and all my friends will kick ur ass so hard no one will b able to recognize u... or find u for that matter...

and thats not literal.... cuz id never kill ne one... beat u up or tell u off.. thats another story.... but u kno what ... jus dont try and touch me.. cuz everyone will kick ur ass... and u kno it...

and zach... ty so much.. u have made this so much better.... ♥ i love you so much....

~ i love you

i jus got an invitation in the mail for "honors students" to go to united kingdom and ireland for 20 days... holy shiznit... really really weird.. but besides that... >.> i wanna go to the hillers game.. but i dont got a ride... :( so sad... i sprayed mike with sweet pea body spray... hes like "hey i like that!!" i was like.. oook... lol.. but besides that ... i mite b playing the oboe! yay!!!! that things really cool looking... and it got a kick ass reed.... so yea.. im excited... julia started reading my book and said it was pretty good and the way i started it grabs ur atteniton cuz ur wanting to know more about whats going on.. so yea.. maybe now i can show it to sum 1 :D (zach maybe?) :) i luv him so much... and now.. im going off to rite more...

tootles... (lol i love that word)

~ ♥ love you

well.... :-P i hate today :D its as simple and complicated as that.. im so mad that zachs not on cuz he got friends over and shit.. and i really need to talk to sum 1 and no ones on yahoo... aim wont work... idk the name of the slipknot cd i got so i cant find the lyrics... and im confused as all hell... geez... plus ryan wont talk to me cuz josh and kodi are over.. woot... >.>... i freakin hate when there over... *sigh* but besides that.. i jus did 2 loads of laundry, changed cocos cage, called perry sexy (dont ask), and i finally jus now figured out y the hell i have problems... b/c i complain way to damn much and i dont have ne thing else to do but sit and think.. and god damnit! how hard is it to find lyrics to a song u dont kno the name of????! .. o well.. screw it all.... screw everything... but at the same time screw no one cuz they'll jus screw u over... i kno that makes sense so if u dont think it does u dont got a brain u dumb ass... >.> and idc if ppl think im bitchy or w/e ... i got probs rite now and this is the only fucking way i can get it out so screw off.... now if only i could go kick sum 1s ass... there are 4 canidates in the house and plenty of time... im gonna have a fun nite....

o wait.. i cant.. im gonna b too busy staying up all nite doin the freakin laundry... its not that i mind doing it.. its jus that dads constantly breathing down my neck "do the laundry do the laundry... get ur ass downstairs and do the laundry!" *sigh* .. kiss my ass.... i cleaned out my computer... (not this one.. the one without the net)... and i have nothing on there now b/c dads gonna try to uh... sumthing it so its gonna b XP... rite now its ME... so whoo... now i can get more stuff... >.>.... exciting.... i have nothing to put on it!... i think that one day when no ones home im gonna get my computer, bring it out here, and plug it into the internet thing and put it on my comp and download a bunch of shit and get lots of stuff like.. messengers... (ill never b able to use em tho...)... pix... nope.. thats all i can think of... but now...... i am really thinkin im not gonna do i cuz 1) ill jus end up breaking my comp or 2)ill end up getting in lots of trouble.... so yea.. its a lose lose situation... what a choice....

so .. thats today..

~ hm.... no smart ass siggy yet... wait for it ... nope

specially if i dont stop having nitemares... >.> i freaking hate em! i jus wish theyd go away!!!!!! its sucking so bad.... i woke up at like.. 730 in a cold sweat b/c of my dream.. then i started to cry cuz it was really really disterbing.... it was that zach slept with brittany and it was so so so so real! :( i wanted to shoot myself when i woke up... i hate when stuff like this happens... it makes me so freaking depressed... last nite i was so bored that i jus sat in my room listening to disturbed for like 2 hrs.... i cant get that dream outta my head!  its jus stuck there and it keeps playing over and over and over again in my head... its like its trying to make me go insane... (its doin a pretty good job) ... i just wish i didnt have that dream.. even tho it was jus a dream.. its still scaring me... specially ever since i had dreams that came tru.... i jus dont like sleeping ne more.. b4.. it wasnt so bad.. now its come down to bad zach dreams and me being killed.... (and i still think sum 1 wants me dead.. who?... i got ideas).. i jus wish that for once i didnt feel like i was going to regret going to sleep... and the nite b4 last nite.. i was shot 7 times in my dream and i went to call 911 (how i was still alive idk)... and then i started pukin up blood while i was saying help me... and i woke up and thought i was literally gonna puke.... >.> its just so disterbing everything i dream... (there are the ocassional daydreams that arent so bad... but i think of them myself)... so yea... thats todays drama so far...

~ promise me that my dream isnt tru baby...

went shopping.. spent 50 dollars on 4 shirts... 2 camis and 2 sweaters (really pretty btw.. never thought id wear a sweater volintarily) .... i jus noticed i cant read jibberish... shabina sent me a message chris sent her and i could read it... it looked like mas and ahs and kdfj;hklasldfkss... its like reading another language with the way he was talking... my finger hurts... i cut it yesterday in IT... as usuall.... stuff didnt work... dad tried formating my computer and.... IT DIDNT WORK! who woulda guessed?.. hmm... me maybe? .... =P i dont like my comp rite now.... >.>

for once ryan said i looked pretty! lol thats a first

~ ♥ the nitemare wasnt tru... thank god for that... i love u zach... (even though u left me :D)

so yea... dont bother figuring out what that means.... >.> i look all pretty rite now... i got my new clothes on and did my hair all pretty for mikes party... off to millvile at 12... >.> god i hate that aunt donna lives all the way out there...  *sigh* im very happy with the way i look rite now... my hairs all springgy and i pulled my "bangs" back (jus the front of my hair)... i look all cute and cuddly lol yea.. but besides that.. weird dream again last nite... i wasnt killed tho yay! ... watched hide and seek last nite with mom dad and ryan... O.O what a freaky ass movie.... it wasnt really that scary but the dude in the basement that grabbed that grl scared the living hell outta me.. i jumped :D weird twist ending... but i liked it... :) we also rented the ring 2 .. muh haha... thats gonna b tonites project... im not allowed to im this mornin so im emailing ppl back and forth...

i think i mite actually get some work done on my book today.. havent writen much lately.. julia said she liked it so thats good...

~ ♥ im obsessed with those lil hearts.. there so adorable :D

-D-

Once you get it into your head that you want someone,
you move full steam ahead in pursuit. You do not give up your quest
easily, but you should always ask yourself am I doing the right thing.
You should think twice if you are in love with someone else. You are
nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You
are highly sexual, passionate, loyal, and intense in you're involvement,
sometimes possessive and jealous. Sex to you is a pleasure to be
enjoyed. The eccentric and unusual, having a free and open stimulate
you.

sex math does work!!!
Body: YOUR AGE BY SEX MATH:
DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST!

It takes less than a minute....... Work this out as you read... You
might need a small piece of scrap paper for simple addition and subtraction.

1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that
you would like to have sex. (more than once but
less than 10)





2. Multiply this number by 2 (Just to be bold)





3. Add 5. (for Sunday)





4. Multiply it by 50 I'll wait while you get the calculator................





5. If you have already had your birthday this year add
1755....



If you haven't, add 1754 ....





6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.
You should have a three digit number





The first digit of this was your original number (i.e.,
how many times you want to have sex each week).




The next two numbers are .........



YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!)



THIS IS THE ONLY YEAR (2005) IT WILL EVER WORK, SO
SPREAD IT AROUND > > WHILE IT LASTS

that thing actually worked... i got 214 O.O

when i was over at aunt sues house i got my freaking ass kicked... my uncle gave me a fuckin monkeyball .... on my ass! (literally!)... so yea... it hurt like hell... but besides that i ripped out some of his hair... got yelled at alot.... mom told me in not allowed to become a cosmetologist just like im not allowed to not eat red meat... well this is what i have to say to that... fuck u... ill live my life the way i want and not let u influence me on what the hell i wanna do... jus b/c u want me to be like u dont mean i will.... and go ahead.. tell dad that im not listening to u.. i wont listen to him either... im so fucking sick of ur shit and tellin me im too smart to become a cosmetologist.. its what i want... so y the hell r u making such a big deal outta it? .. and no one is influencing me not listening to u but me.. u gotta prob with it? 2 damn bad.... another thing.. u shouldnt be trying to read this.. and dont bitch b/c u cant.. b/c its none of ur buisness what i write... so screw off...

~ dont screw with me today

ok... do i stay with the one i love? or do i try for a lil fling? its not fair that i do a fling b/c i love zach to death... and id hate to give him up jus for sum 1 i have a crush on... and i feel so bad that i kissed jake now.... and it was such a slutty thing to do... but its jus.. i think about zach... and then all the emotions i feel about him i put on other ppl... like if im thinking of how much i love him, the first guy that flirts with me i do sumthing stupid to.... like the jake example....  and i dont get y i did it it jus happened that way... its like.. i wanna wait so bad 4 zach... cuz i love him with all my heart and thats all i think about everyday and its all i talk about... ( i think yall kno that..) but besides that... nothing really went on today

~ me...

im mad at this site! its gay..... it wont let my header pic cum up :(  i got so pissed last nite... now i 4get y tho.... trying to find a good pic of slipknot rite now... i got many compliments on my lil sweater today :D ty .. made me happy! *sigh* im freaking exhausted... i think maybe ill go to sleep jus long enuf so that i wake up in time 4 dinner.. cuz then i eat, get my shower, and then get on here and chat :D... i got this system of a down song stuck in my head.. and the same part keeps playing over and over again... "psyco groupie cocaine crazy.. psyco groupie cocaine crazy psyco groupie go makes u high makes u high..." and on and on and on :D i love that song tho... perry u dumb ass u didnt email me :( ... im so craving to go buy sum shit with my parent credit cards... if i did.. id get myself a lil messenger thingy... (no a cell the thing u txt on and has the messengers...).... laptop.. the net on my computer.. and a tredmil.... sounds fun to me :D... but according to my mom "you dont need any of that.. dont think about it!"... >.> :-P :(... (many emotions at once.. no?).. so yea.... im gonna go either take a long hot bath with lots of bubbles.. or... sleep... whatever suits my mood at the moment.. which means.. bath tub hear i come (pleseant image huh?... get it the fuck outta ur mind!) :D

~ ♥ i didnt do ne thing stupid today yay! i love you zach

im done with my power point so im bored now... >.>... i wonder what to do... hmm... sit here and ramble sounds good to me.. im sitting here with jarrett and julia... julias on mindsay now!!! yay!!!!! :D so yea... but besides that... i mite be goin to the movies with tr and ryan and sam and jeremy and kayla.. it depends on if tr wants to go.. otherwise.. im not goin... or maybe i will just to hang with sam...  but yea.. thats tomorrow.. friday i am leaving u all!!!! :D im going to franklin (aka oil city) with katie and all them... so yea... + ... (jarret likes the lil plus) lol so yea.. im sick of all the teacher being around me... so im gonna go.. now time for xanga!!! :D

~ ♥ i love you zach

i feel so cold for no reason.. maybe cuz the fans on... tomorrows plans.... wake up.. go to skool... get ready for the movies... go to movies with tr sam ryan kayla and jeremy... lots of ppl huh? yea... so... we're going to see flight plan.. well... idk if they'll watch it tho.. knowing them atleast... >.>... god that will make me so mad... so ... i got a date for there... wow... like we're going to do ne thing... >.> .. so yea.. im excited jus to get out of the house and see sam! i havent seen her in like.... 6 months! geez... thats a really long time...  so her and jeremy are gonna hook up... ryan and kayla.. and wow.. i jus realized im goin on a triple date..... >.>

~ ♥ love u

ok.. rite now im tryin to make sure everyone going.. so far me sam ryan jeremy britteny and gwenith (heh.. idk her) are going ... jeremy britteny and gwenith are all sams friends and jeremy is ryans friend too and im still waiting for tr to call to make sure hes going... so yea.. im so stressin rite now.. we're goin to go see flight plan... >.> really boring i think .. but thats all thats out... it starts at 645 so we're meeting there at 630 and im waiting for mom to get out of the shower so i can get one... god... i am so freaking stressed rite now.. o and kaylas goin to ... >.> whoopie.. i freaking hate that dumb ass munchkin... (get down on your knees... add an inch.. thats how tall she is..)... ( cut ur brain into 100ths... put 2 together.. thats her brain)... >.> yea...

~ ♥ wish u could be here for this

well... today im going to franklin.. whoo... im not really awake in the head rite now b/c im still mad that tr didnt cum with us to the movies.. either way i had fun... i smacked jeremy like.. 20 times... i smacked will (idk his last name) like... 10 times and punched him once for saying sumthin bout getting outta here and gettin into the back of the car (he was jk) but i had fun... the movie.. i dont remember .. i was too busy laughin my ass off the whole time.. brittany spit up in the air and it landed on one of the preppy grls in front of us.... sam kept screamin "shut the hell up bitches!" .. so yea.... i had fun... but i today .. im leaving and im going to end up going shopping.. i still gotta start packing... and i gotta get a shower.. and i gotta do all that good stuff.. so.. yea.. ill miss u ppl

~ ♥ i love you zach

so yea.. im up here in franklin.. im talking to zach and perry rite now... :D ... but besides that things are going cool... last nite ppl were drunk... dad walked into the sliding glass door! hahah!
but yea... i didnt spend ne of the money dad gave me ... for once.. and rite now im staring at the two beer cans in front of me... interesting... but yea.. this weekend was ok i guess

~ dayna

What Would You Do If..

I died from natural causes:

I kissed you:

I lived next door to you:

I started smoking:

I stole something:

I was hospitalized:

I ran away from home:

I got into a fight and you weren't there?:

I got my heart broken:

What Do You Think Of My...

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Laugh:

Family:

Body :

Would You..

Keep a secret if I told you one?:

Hold my hand?:

Take a bullet for me?:

Keep in touch?:

Try and solve my problems?:

Love me?:

Date me?:

Dance w/ me?:

Make out w/ me?:

Be my friend?:
Have You Ever..

Lied to make me feel better?:

Wanted to kiss me?:

Wanted to kill me?:

Broke my heart?:

Kept something important from me?:

Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

Thought I was crazy?:

Random Stuff..

What reminds you of me?..
Am I your Friend?...

Do you know the real me?...

If you could give me anything what would it be?..

How well do you know me?..

When's the last time you saw me?..

Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?.. .

so im home.. and i found out ppl r not home... O.O my moms at work.. :( made me sad... i missed everyone while i was up in franklin... i miss katie and everyone already tho too... i gotta get them to move down here.... turns out this summer i really am going to go up there for a week.. we're holding a 'child exchange' im going up there and seans coming down here.. i jus gotta remember to call up there...  im excited tho.. i love it up there..  but at the same time i hate it... how does that stuff happen? i love it up there b/c my friends r really cool.. its jus there so diff from me.. its jus weird... but while i was up there we walked up to this huge field and i got to feed these really huge horses.. drew a couple good pics.. .so yea.. it was ok i guess...

besides that im really tired... dad made up a knew nickname for me.. "fingers" b/c i type really fast and realy loud lol... accordin to shabina it says im on myspace and im not...  which means... sum 1s on my name.. yet again.. i gotta get harder passwords... >.> my old ones jus arent cuttin it.. and it was hilarious this weekend when my dad was slurring.... it made me laugh so hard...

~ ♥ much love you u sweetie...

so... well.... im sad... and frustrated... and ... about to blow sum 1s head off .... but im jus in that kinda mood.. so yea.. im frustrated with my dad and perry ... (not really with perry jus wish that i didnt miss talking to him... i was 10 min late!!!! :() so yea.. im tired.. i gotta do the dishes.. take a shower... and get all ready for pic day tomorrow.. im not lettin ne one influence what i wear this time.. im dressing like i normally do..punk/skater.. so yea... im gonna strangle my dad.. every 2 mins hes like do the dishes! .. im like gimme a min!!! geez!

~ off i go!.. dishes here i come... (ewwww... we had macaroni which means my hands r gonna get all cheesy... :()

im with julia in the library rite now... hahah! shes failing her virtual driving test! :D i got my pic taken and i saw it on the computer ... it looks so good!!!! im so happy! it turns out im more photogenic than i thought! (my god am i using a lot of !'s) im laughting at julia cuz she cant drive.. of course neither can i.. :D.. im not as bad as jay tho... he wrecked a total of 12 cars/go carts i think... that sux... >.> ... but good news! im really happy! yay happy!... but i get to kick trs ass today :D... he left me at the movies all by myself without ne one to talk to cuz jenee was too busy with ryan and sam was too busy with jeremy and brittney was too busy with will (if he wasnt botherin me)... so yea.. i was all alone! but yea.. i think im starting to get alot more outgoin on here... im gonna voice my oppinion damnit... :D arent cha so prouda me? ... nah.. but i dont got my cd player today so no slipknot on the bus.. which means i actually gotta listen to ppl when there talkin to me... O.O... scary thought... julia saw zachs pic that he put up .. she said he was really hott (hes mine bitch back off :D) lol jk.. well.... last nite i asked dad if i could get a game 4 my computer and hes like ill think about it but when ryan asked he gave it to him right away... and he said he got no allowence till his birthday and he started getting one on my birthday.... and they said that theres no favorites.. >.> awww.. screw em.. i dont fucking care ne more.. there gonnna piss me off..t hen deal with the consiquences bitches.... whered my happy go? but more good news! zachs hairs growin back!!! :D hes so sexy lol! :D (no jk this time) ugh.. i dont wanna get off here but im goin to....

~ ♥ love you baby

HAVE YOU EVER?...

1.Kissed you cousin? - ha! hell no!

2.Ran away? - yea to my shed...

3.Pictured your crush naked? - it was his fault! he told me he was goin to take a shower :D

4.Skipped school? - no.. but ive skipped pb like.. 5 days in a row b4...

5.Broken someone's heart? - prolly not.. ive never been asked out or dumped ne one b4

6.Been in love? - am rite now :)

7.Cried when someone died? -always... even my lil hamster Toby... (so thats where  my depression started...i think...)

8.Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? -dur...

9.Broken a bone? - yep.. jus my toe tho

10.Done something embarrassing? -how does every day sound?

11.Done a drug? - nopers

12.Cried in school? -almost did today from frustration... i need anger management

WHICH IS BETTER...

13.Coke or Pepsi? - yuck.. neither...

14.Sprite or 7UP? - again.. neither

15.Girls or Guys? - there both good in many ways...

16.Flowers or Candy? - for me?

17.Scruff or Clean shaved? - clean shaved... (but as long as there nice and hott idc really..)

18.Blondes or Brunettes? - brunettes... or black hair.. i luv em both

19.Too Fat or Too Skinny? - too skinny... other ppl r to hard to hug... (not to be mean or ne thing..)

20.Tall or Short? -tall!! but i have a tendency of dating short guyz... and it figures.. cuz im 5' 7"

21.Pant or Shorts? - pants.... i dont like seein there hairy legs... lol

22.Night or Day? - night.... alot funner....

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...

23. What do you notice first? - hair!!! i luv guyz hair...

24.Last person you slow danced with? - justin mcCoulugh last year at the valentines dance b/c he was desperate...

25.Worst questioin to ask? -will you have sex with me? (julia was rite ya kno?)

THE LAST TIME YOU....

26. Showered? - last nite..

27.Stepped outside? - when i got off the bus..

28.Had sex? -neva

29.Romantic memory? - never had ne thing romantic dun 4

30.Your good luck charm? -dont really have one... nothin gets rid of this shit!

31.Person you hate the most? - its a tie between everyone at skool that pisses me off...

32.Best thing that has happened? - meeting some one i trust.. zach...

33.On your desk? - lots...

34.Picture on your desktop? -webshots pix

FAVORITES...

35.Color? - purple (tho i own nothing purple)

 36.Movie? - ne thing that will keep me interested...

37.Artist? - tie between slipknot and SOAD

38. Cars: PT Cruisers and mini coopers!

39. Ice Cream: raspberry swirl

40. Season: Winter

41. Breakfast Food: Hot pockets

WHO...
42. Makes you laugh the most: zach (specially with his chicken pot pie song)

43. Makes you smile: zach...

44. Can make you feel better no matter what: zach (see a pattern?)

u look in the mirror...

is it you?

do you even see you in there?

anywhere?

of course not...

or is it jus some one whos trying to fit in?

trying to find themself?

or just a total flake?

faker...

are you trying to adapt yourself to your surroundings?

trying to blend in with the crowd?

dont you think u were made one way for a reason?

i cant see you...

do you wanna scream?

wanna slit your wrist?

just because you know this isnt you?

i wont push you..

can you find your center?

define yourself?

label everyone?

impossible....

can you see me?

can you find who i really am?

or do i confuse you?

probably...

am i a prep?

am i a punk?

or am i just me?

exactly...

totally random poem i just thought of... ive been thinkin alot about the way i "classify" myself.... and the truth is.. no one can classify any one... idk if that poem confuses u or not.. but it makes perfect sense to me...

~♥ you know the way i feel about you... i make that crystal clear...

Fall Out Boy is the band for the day...

ive been thinkin about the ppl at skool.. and man.. 2 outta 3 of em r dumb asses...

wanting to dye my hair rite now.. i wanna make it black!!! cuz then... the blonde in my hair will turn dark purple.. and the brown will turn black.. which is totally awesome! zack got off the bus with us.. >.> ... and for once he was actually nice to me.. got lots of hw... most to b done on the net... english totally sucks! i hate learnin about the hollocaust.. cuz it makes me think about how really demonic sum ppl r... and i got algebra .. :-P i hate "Mrs. White"... for all we kno she jus changed her name.. who would really wanna marry the bitch? shes arrogant and when im trying to help ppl and explain shit.. she says im "over controling" well... if im so over controlling.. then y the hell would i let her teach? o.O.. exactly! i do let her.. so she can go screw off...

but happy news!!! nicoles not mad at me ne more!! but megens mad at her b/c shes not mad at me?? O.o ... :-P stupid.. all of it...

~ ♥ dayna ♥

ever been scared of losing sumthing.. tried so hard not to lose it.. then end up losing it ne way? story of my life...

amazin aint it?

but ok.. now im done with the drama...

rite now im jus sittin here... bored.. waitin for zach to get on...

im watchin thats 70s show.... its so funny lol

for sum reason.. i jus feel like doin sumthin different for once...

i think i mite go work out... im gonna try and get myself down to like... 95 pounds...

think thats too thin? o.O

o and this things fun to do! devan showed me (o>o) :D its an upside down head! lol

god im hyper...

leave it all to me.. ill end up doin it at one time or another

ever been really frustrated that sum 1 wasnt online? yea... makes ya mad dont it? exactly! rite now im readin random bulletins on myspace.. and according to one.. i had a one night stand with a curly fry! (god are these things stupid!) O.O i love my site now.. all glowy lookin! ya gotta love it... but besides that im really sad... i havent talked to zach in like.... 3 days now.. >.>... im up to page 177 in my book or sumthin like that... and i still got about 150 to go... whoo... and im readin this one bulletin.. and it makes alot of sense... tips on what u should do 4 grls... and all of em sound really sweet...  listenin to friends... geez... i wonder why i havent thought of doin this b4.. but since the begining of the year i thought this one dude thats in my pb was really hott! so today i had jess see if hell go out with me... :D .. i really am frustrated with zach rite now.. so y not...

~ ♥ even if i am frustrated.. hes still really hott (i had to get it outta my system)

O and the band for today is evanescence

im so freaking excited man! i jus got a new b/f and for once.. i didnt ask him out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!! im so happy! (if ur wonderin who it is... its kenny frye!) ok well.. what happened was was i was havin nicole and kevin talk to him so maybe hed get an idea like.. o wth ill go out w/her... so yea.. b4 pb nicole stopped me in the hall and was like.. i talked to kenny and i was like whatd he say?! and shes like.. well.. at first he was like ill think about it and then he was like yea ill go out with her and then i was like.. ok so im goin out with him? and shes like.. im not done yet.. and i was like ok continue.. and she was like.. ok well i told him that he has to ask u out b/c im not going to tell u and i was like ok... so i went to my locker and miss deems was our sub 4 pb.. and while she was takin role i kept seein kenny look over at me and every time id see he was lookin i looked down or jus smiled then went back to talkin to my friends.. then we went to miss deems room and kenny sat on the other side of the room and i was like.. grr... i want him to sit over here to kalie and shes like well tell him and im like no i dont wanna be mean.. then like ... 20 min later i was done with my algebra and i was getting very impatient cuz i still kept seein him look at me.. and i was like.. cum over here (to kenny) and hes like what? im like cum sit over here and hes like y? and im like cuz.. and i sat there starin at him and he stared back.. then miss deems said sumthin and he said sumthing back and she yelled at him.. and he was like fine ill go sit sum where else and he walked out of the room and i was like where u goin? and he came back and smiled and sat in front of me.. and hes like y did u want me to sit here? and im like.. cuz i was bored :D (i lied!!!) so then tyler calabaro asked if we were goin out b/c everyone was... and hes like idk.. and im like.. well idk either so dont look at me.. and then he got real quiet and hes like.. well will u go out with me and im like sure... and so i got his # and then the bell rang and i was like.. oops.. srry if mines a lil sloppy.. but hes not on first :( o well im still happy! !!!!! i got a b/f yay!

~ ♥ dayna jackie

(if yall dont kno that aint my real middle name... its jus what sum of my random ppls call me... )

so yea.. i found out more info then i ever wanted to kno about zach today.. for all i care i would never talk to him again and it wouldnt bug me...  perry thinks we should b friends.. and that would b kool... but idc either way...

now im sittin here listenin to music.. its kool jus bein able to chill today..

but later i got to the dishes.. and i guess we're havin nothin 4 dinner.. whoot...

band for the day is nickleback

~ ♥ dayna

that is such severe sarcasm...

so far today ive cleaned my room.. done two loads of laundry.. gotta do the dishes still...  painted my toenails (whos gonna see em?).. and i ate lunch.. wow..

tomorrow is gonna b an exciting day! i get to see kenny yay! but i dont get to have pb w/ him tomorrow b/c of band.. :(os well..

i gotta tell him bout kevins plan so he dont listen to kevin..

weird dreams last nite.. mostly about things that i dont remember .. all i remember is seein lots of guns... O.O

sad thing is tho i dont got ne classes w/him besides pb

~ ♥ dayna

welll.... today was fun! i havent shut up all day b/c im so freakin happy still! i saw kenny today like.. 5 times! lol but i didnt have pb w/ him b/c of band... :( :-P stupid band...idk what to do bout gettin a hug tho! i dont wanna ask 4 one! O.O relationships r so complicated at times.... so are my friends lives... im so sad 4 everyone...

~ ♥ dayna ♥